-Are you anorexic? - asked Kiba while walking up to him, with only shorts on his body.
-Kiba!..- Neji hit him in the head.
-No...I'm not...- replied Naruto, he turned away and covered his scars at the same time.
-But Kiba is kind of right...- said a tall guy, with dark eyes.- So...Just so you know, I'm Shikamaru...nice to meet you...It's a really bothersome thing to say, but you really look quite bad...-
-WHAT IS THIS SUPPOSED TO BE?! Some casting for Playboy?! Too much here, too little there? Fuck off! - said Naruto while putting on the rest of his PE clothes, he immediately left and he headed to the gym.
The gym - for a school one was huge. On one side there were tribunes and windows. While on other side there was something like an observation deck, which was a school's corridor at the same time.
-Ok boys - said our PE teacher Asuna - today we will have a nice relaxing lesson, of course we will play a basketball. Most importantly I want to see how skilled is the new guy...ermm...Naruto right? - he looked at the blonde-haired boy's face and then at his left wrist.- What's that? First day of school and you got a contusion? Or are those bandages a decoration?
-It's fine! I'm able to exercise...- mumbled Naruto.
-OK then...divide into teams, Sasuke and Kiba will be captains and choose their team-mates.- After those words Asuma moved away to the side, and the boys were splitting into two teams. Sasuke of course chose the best ones, and Kiba those who he liked and of course the new guy...since "the new guy" was the last one left, and he was forced to join Kiba's team.
-OK boys- said Kiba while showing his white teeth when smiling - we will lose anyway so relax, who wants to be an attacker? -
-Me...-said Naruto.
Asuma gave us a gesture that we can start playing. The ball in the game, was taken over by Sasuke's team. Kiba's boys did what they could...but they couldn't do much against the better players. The best students in basketball were : Sasuke, Neji, Shikamaru, Gaara, they were all on the same team. It was hard to play against the "elite". The ball was travelling around from player to a player, and it didn't think about landing in Naruto's hand. So Naruto took it over himself. When Gaara was calmly dribbling and he already ran across half of the gym. Out of nowhere Naruto jumped in and he took the ball. No one saw anyone dribbling so low before. Naruto ran across few metres towards the basket. They blocked him. He passed the ball to Kiba, but when he had a free way to the basket, he gave Kiba a signal to pass him the ball. There was only one more opponent, Sasuke on defence. The blue-eyed boy was heading clearly to the right side. Glad Sasuke was ready to defend, but he didn't expect the boy to turn left and shoot and score. The black-haired boy looked at the blue-eyed one "Something so short tricked me.Pff."
The history repeated. Now everyone knew that Naruto was on an "elite" level in basketball. And the situation repeated, Naruto vs Sasuke "He surely will use the same trick again, I have to predict his movement". Surprisingly Naruto passed the ball across Sasuke to Kiba. Sasuke was alone. Should he cover Naruto or should he keep an eye on Kiba? Kiba didn't shoot, he passed the ball to Naruto, and Naruto swiftly did a dunk. Blonde-haired boy was hanging on the basket ring.
-I tricked you once again.- he smirked and said that towards angry Sasuke. Dark-eyed boy wanted to kill him.
-Ha,ha...I've seen something like that for a first time.- smiled Asuna.- ok there's no point in carrying on playing, lesson will end soon. Then what did you think of, Naruto's team? - looked at him Asuna with questioning face. - we have a tradition that a winning team has to give the losing one some stupid dare which they must preform. Naruto looked at Kiba.
-You can decide, you scored for us.- Naruto looked at the floor then at annoyed face's of opposite team.
-It's a psychological game, that mobilises the team to do their best,right? "Everything but not losing, because we will be humiliated.". Good thing is the motivation...but the bad one - hate towards the other team. Because of such psychological game, they have now disgraceful look in their eyes,- Said Naruto while pointing with his head at the losing team.- If I will humiliate you now, my satisfaction will only stay till I will get beaten up...It's kinda stupid. I don't take pleasure from seeing others suffer. For the group of losers, losing is enough,- said Naruto while walking away. The bell rang and he left the gym.
-Get going everyone - said Asuna. "Well that Naruto is interesting and...smart".
When the guys entered the changing room, Naruto was already gone. Naruto sat in front of the Japanese classroom. He had earphones on and he listened to what he liked the most. He leaned his back against the wall, he had his eyes closed and he was hitting his fingers against the floor rhythmically "Give me a reason. Why would you want me to live anddie. Living a lie. You were the answer ; All that I needed to justify. Justify my life". He sang in his mind. He didn't even notice when the whole class gathered and when the bell rang. A tall woman with brown hair, walked up to the class, Miss Kurenai was teaching Japanese. She opened the classroom with her key, and she let the students inside, of course Naruto sat in the last row. Organization stuff. Every first lesson on the first day after summer holidays in school is a grading system and other shit. Naruto like always was scribbling something in his sketchbook. When he was bored of it, he observed the class.
-UCHIHA! - shouted the teacher - show me that note that you just got from Kiba.
-I refuse, it's private information.- said Uchiha, and entire class laughed.
-In that case move to the last row.NOW!!! And you will seat there till the end of the month. - she said and Sasuke turned around, he saw Naruto in the last desk.
-Is that my punishment? - he asked.
-Do you want to seat there for whole year? - he moved there without complaining. It's pointless to mess with Kurenai.
Sasuke sat next to Naruto. He glanced at him. Is his hairstylist a wind? His hair were very messy but they only made him more appealing. The clothes were practically hanging on him. The sad look on his face was a turn down. Uzumaki looked like a killer of beauty. Sasuke realised that Naruto turned in his direction, and looked him right in the eyes. He opened his pale lips slightly, with intention of saying something.
-I don't like you.- stated the blonde-haired boy, and Sasuke couldn't bring himself to say anything.
-That's good...I don't like you either.- he muttered and looked at the blackboard. Naruto kept scribbling something in his sketchbook. Human's curiosity is powerful, but Sasuke managed to pull it back. Even if he felt an urge to look at Naruto, just to see what he is doing in his sketchbook. Since he was too stubborn he didn't look even if he wanted to.
The bell rang. The lesson was finally over. Naruto put his books in his bag and he left the classroom. He didn't talk to anyone. Same on next lesson, and the one after it. Till finally the last lesson was over. Almost everyone enthusiastically ran out of the classroom. He was an exception, he moved slowly and left as the last person. He went to get his skateboard. When leaving the school, he saw his class by the school gate. Everyone was smiling. Suddenly Kiba turned around and started to wave at him..."Hey Naruto, come here for a second"the blonde-haired boy was scared of hearing those words the most. He couldn't avoid them. He had to walk passed them.
-What do you want?- he said while standing next to them.
-You know...because...- began mumbling some pink haired girl - maybe you would want to go for a pizza with us? - Naruto looked at her in a cheeky way, and she tried to avoid eye contact with his cold look.
-Sakura-attack? - he asked while walking up to her - gladly...but I can't.- he said and he walked through the school's gate.
-Cya tomorrow.- shouted some of them,but they didn't get a reply. The girls looked at Naruto walking away with blushes on their faces.
-Oi! Sasuke you are losing your fanclub!- laughed Kiba - just look at them -
-Hey! I don't find him attractive! - shouted Temari and she hit Kiba's head.
-He's weird...seems you got a rival - said Gaara and sat next to Sasuke.
-I can't even consider him my rival. I don't care about my psycho fangirls or about him. He's no one. We shouldn't pay attention to the likes of him.- said Sasuke and he jumped off the wall and he began to leave the school. - So are we going for that pizza? - he asked while turning around. The rest fallowed him.
-I'm just curious about one thing...why did he have those bandages on his wrist? - Neji was thinking out loud.
-Let's go get a pizza for now.- Choji jumped in. We forgot about Naruto. Now only pizza mattered!
Naruto entered his house slowly. He locked the doors. He went upstairs to his room. He put his skateboard away and he lay on bed. They didn't laugh at him today...they even tried to invite him for a pizza. But what would happen next? They would surely make fun of him. After the last accident he got scars on his face. Did it hurt? It hurt him only that no one accepted him. Physical pain didn't matter, he was used to it...it made him feel relieved. He sat up and he took off the bandages from his left wrist. He revealed all his wounds, scars and crusts which were there because of his mental breakdowns...his thoughts...his wrist...his razor blades...He sometimes wished to go back in time to change it, but time only moves forward not backwards. Even if he had blade in his hand so many times, he was unable to kill himself. He just couldn't...his thoughts kept popping up and he never could stop thinking. He was alone, people always made fun of him, he was filled with hatred towards himself. With such attitude towards life, the fact that he never decided to make the final cut was a miracle...He walked up to his desk that stood by the window. On the side there was a shelf and on it were his favourite books. The boy began to look at them. He read a lot. He had to somehow fill the time that he spent alone. Suddenly something fell down. It was his diary. Old diary with entries of few people that used to accept him. But why did it have to open on that page...
Remember to be brave!
It's the most important thing.
Don't be afraid to be around new people!
Because among them you can find someone who might become part of this diary.
Because you can find friends among them!
If not, if they will turn around away from you,
Then show them that you're strong!
Because you're someone!
Also remember us...friends from the past...even if you can't see us.
Even if we are far away.
Far or not.
Alive or dead...we will always be with you...never forget this.
Thanks you Naruto, that you were able to accept me, a drug addict.
You gave me friendship, and I paid you back the same way.
Remember about courage and your strength...
JIMMY
"Alive or dead...or dead..." he began to shed tears from his eyes. It looked as if the sky cried together with him. Rain drop after rain drop, tear after tear. Naruto leaned on the wall and he sat down. He covered his face with his hands. The sky got dark, so did his room. The rain became heavy. Drops were hitting his window while making a loud noise. Bang. He looked through his window. Some people were running on the streets, in attempt to find shelter from the rain. In front of a house not far away someone took a child inside. While he was alone. Alone like always...
***
On the next day, the sun came out from behind the dark clouds. Overall the weather wasn't too nice. Naruto was late for his lesson. It was the same the next day, and the day after that. Till finally it was Friday and Naruto came late again. This week everyone understood that Naruto will always be late. Finally the last bell rang. Naruto left the class last. He saw the same group of people in the same spot as on Monday. Only this time Lee,Choji, Shino and Ten Ten wasn't there.
-Hey Naru! - shouted Kankuro when Naruto passed by as if he haven't noticed them.
-I'm listening.- he said while turning around.
-We are going today to Sabaku siblings! Wanna go with us? - asked Ino while hugging him.
-Hmmm...- Naruto lowered his head and pushed Ino away.
-See? I won the bet, I told you he won't come.- said Kiba to Neji.
-Kiba you lost the bet. I can go...- said Naruto.
-Great! Then we are going to my house.- said Kankuro and he led everyone to his house and then...
-HEY!!! KANKURO I WILL KILL YOU!!! IF YOU INVITED THEM THEN DO A PARTY IN YOUR ROOM AND NOT MINE!!!
-Cool down Gaara.- said Kankuro while moving away from him on a safe distance, so his brother couldn't hit him...
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