Difficult love - Chapter 5

Yesterday he got very cold. The way home was long, but luckily it stopped raining soon. He was hoping that he will catch a cold so he would avoid today's evening. Just by think about it he could feel his stomach twist. Few hours ago he was looking forward to that supper, but now that there are few minutes left to go, he wanted the time to pass slower. He was taking a shower for a very long time, what resulted in his brother knocking and telling him to get out, because he wanted to take a bath too. He added that he never saw Naruto behaving like this, that he is acting like a child. The moment that they were meant to leave the house, Naruto panicked and he wanted to run away to his room. Gaara didn't let him to and he dragged him outside by force.
-What's wrong with you today?
-I don't want to go there.
-Yesterday you wanted to. You were even determined to go, why did that change?
-My stomach hurts.
-It will get better.- he opened the car's doors.- Get in, because I have no intention to get through this alone.
-It's your girlfriend, what do I have to do with this. I don't have to be there.- he leaned on the car and he crossed his arms.
-I'm nervous, and your presence calms me down. Besides you have been invited, and you have confirmed that you will show up.
-I got a good reason for not going there.
Brother came up to him.
-What's the matter?
-I told you about Uchiha before, the boy who bullies me.
-Yea, and?
-He will be there.
-Is he Hinata's friend?
-He's her brother, the one with black hair. You saw him at Pizzeria before.
-That's Uchiha? He was OK, and even if not what could he possibly do to you? He would think that you chickened out if you won't come.
Naruto's face was filled with determination. He entered the car and he waited till his brother will sit on the driver's seat. Gaara got in and he started the car.
-I want to get a driving license. I don't want to travel by a bus. Yesterday I had to go back home on legs, I didn't want to wait an hour for the next one, and you were at work.
-Why are you telling me all that?
-I'm suggesting, that if you have at least one day off, you could teach me at least theories.
-Next week. I'm only free on weekends.
-Fine.- the rest of the way they spent without talking. He sat comfortably and he was hoping that getting there will take a while. That wish didn't come true, because Daishi family didn't live far away.
-We are here, luckily we aren't late.
Their house was huge. A type that could hold about ten bedrooms. Surrounded by a beautiful garden, which probably was filled with thousands of flowers during summer. Now the garden was asleep, it was resting and waiting for the first sign of spring.
Naruto while looking around saw a car that Sasuke and Haku are using to get to school. For a moment he had a hope that Sasuke won't be home. Although he would surely feel let down if he was absent. Hinata ran towards us from the house ,and jumped on Gaara's neck.
-Hi honey.- she kissed his lips.- Hi Naruto.- she kissed his cheek.- I hope that you are hungry. We prepared a real feast and you have to help us in eating everything. Come inside to meet my parents.
  They entered a spacious white hall. The first thing that the guys noticed were wooden stairs that were covered with red carpet. It was located in the centre of the hall, wide and huge like in a palace. Walls were decorated with family pictures and souvenirs from travelling, as well as flowers.
  Hinata introduced me to my parents, who waited for them in a living room. He observed his brother who was nervous, and he shook hands with his future father-in-law. No, it's too early to consider their relationship as something serious. Mr Daishi was a tall handsome man with blue hair, and with cheerful brown eyes. His wife was short, with  red hair and white eyes, she smiled to them kindly. She had a warm kind voice, that made people around her want to listen to it.
-I see that you are on time. Father always says that punctuality, is one of the most important attributes.- said Sasori.
-Where is Sasuke?- asked Sasori's mother.
-He will be here soon. He is making himself sexy.
-I will punch you.- they heard Uchiha's voice coming from the stairs.
-You love me too much to beat me up.- he laughed, and Sasuke walked down the stairs. When he was next to Sasori he looked at Naruto.
-As far as I know you all know each other, let's go to the dining room.- said Hinata's mother.

Huge rectangle table was filled with many kinds of dishes. Naruto sat between Hinata and Haku, who was busy texting people on his phone. Sasuke took a place opposite to Naruto, so he could stare at him from there.
-You got a nice house and garden.- said Gaara.
-Thank you. I'm trying my best so everyone who lives here, or visits us feels good. Sasuke please pour wine for everyone.
-OK aunty.
-I can't, thank you. I'm driving.
-Tomorrow is Sunday, you can stay over for the night. We have enough rooms.
-Thank you, but there's no one home, we wouldn't want to leave the house empty. Since there are many burglars in the area.- Naruto was scared of perspective of staying here over the night. At home he could stay away from the guy that he likes. He shook his head, because he got stupid thoughts again. Like him, heh nice one. He felt that Sasuke is bending over to pour him wine. It lasted only a moment, but it was enough to breathe in his smell.
-What did he spray on himself. He never smelled like this before. I mean not so intensive, either there's something wrong with me, or my nose is more sensitive.
He looked at him walking up to everyone and pouring red wine. He kept glancing at Naruto. When he sat down he stared at at Uzumaki. Naruto felt uneasy under that pressure.  He looked at his plate and he began eating. Haku with a smile poured him juice in a glass.
-I didn't believe that you told the truth yesterday.
-Sasuke didn't either.
-It's the opposite, he was sure that you will come today, although yesterday he betted that you will chicken out.
They heard the people on the other side of the table laugh. They were listening to Gaara and Sasori telling stories about their life at university. About tattoos that they almost got themselves. Thanks to that Naruto could notice that Mr and Mrs Daishi are fun people. That they feel good around youngsters.
-My husband had a tattoo. Out of stupidity. After university he went to a doctor to get it removed.
-Dad why? Tattoos are sexy for some people.- said Hinata.
-For some right, but not the ones that were done when you were drunk.
-Have you got any tattoo Naruto?- asked Sasuke with a sarcasm.  While playing with a glass of wine.
-No, I don't.
-Naruto has a birthmark on his thigh. In a shape of heart. It looks pretty.- said Sasori.
At this moment Sasuke's eyes gotten wider, and he looked angrily at young Uzumaki. Naruto couldn't stand his stares and he had to leave for a moment.
-Haku where is the toilet?
-In a hall on the right, last doors.
-Thanks.- he stood up, all of his muscles were stiff. He found toilet without any problems, and he tried to calm himself by taking deep breaths.
-Why was he looking at me like this? It starts to annoy me. He's looking at me as if I wanted to steal something, or do something fishy. I had enough, I want to go home, I want to change schools.I have to get away from him.
He left the toilet. He barely took two steps, and someone suddenly grabbed his hand and pulled him inside a room, which seemed like an office. It was Sasuke. He pushed the boy on a wall and he angrily hissed into his ear.
-How does my friend knows about your birthmark? Did he see you naked?
-What, are you jealous?
Sasuke took a step back.
-You wish.
-I don't.
-You're wishing for me to touch you.
-No Uchiha. I don't know how you reached that conclusion. I don't want your touch. Besides who told you that I'm gay?
-You admitted it yourself, do you remember the note? You didn't deny, for me it means that...
-What?! What does it mean?! You will have another reason to make fun of me?! Sasuke got closer to him, and he pulled his head backwards. Naruto's body trembled with pleasure, when Sasuke's tongue licked his neck and his ear. It was something that he has never felt before, that made it very intensive.
-You're melting.- Sasuke whispered.-  My touch has that effect on you. Don't tell me that you don't want more.
-I don't.- the reply was rather weak.
-If you want, I could fuck you right here and now.
-You said that you aren't gay.- he didn't like Uchiha's idea.
-I lied. You're naive. Everyone knows that I'm gay.- his breath tickled his neck. Giving him more shivers.- Only blind can't see certain things.- he touched Naruto's chest and then he touched his stomach. Naruto held his breath in.- You would want that, huh?
-It seems like YOU are the one who wants that.- he tried to take control over his body. It was close and he would get hard. No one has ever touched him in sexual way before.
-It's the opposite. It's fun for me. Sorry, but I won't give you what you want.
Naruto got angry and he pushed Sasuke away.
-You are a fucking jerk! What? Your mom didn't give you toys, and now you will play with me?!- one slap in the cheek calmed Naruto.
-Never mention my mother again!- His eyes were filled with anger and pain. He put his hand away, the one that he slapped the boy with. Naruto just realised what he said. How could he forget that Uchiha's mother is dead.
-I'm sorry Sasuke.- he put a hand on his shoulder with some doubts.
-Don't touch me! Don't look at me as if you're feeling sorry for me.- it was clear that he has been thinking intensively about something.- What, why are you looking at me like this? What can you know? What do you fucking know?- he grabbed his shirt and pulled him to himself.
-I know that your parents are dead.
-How? Tell me, otherwise I will break your nose!
-I told him.- Sasori said with a calm tone, while standing by the doors.- Let him go. He didn't do anything wrong.
-What are you guys doing here?
-You were gone for a long time. We came to search for you.
Haku came up to Sasuke and dragged his hands away, from the scared Naruto.
-When did you tell him?- he brought back the topic.
-I'm his massager, and on our session I told him some things. It's no secret. I wanted him to know that you aren't a bad person.
-Why would he need such information? You were asking about me, right?- he turned to Uzumaki.
-I wanted to know why you treat me this way.
-I told you already that I like toying with you. We can have different kind of fun now. It will be nice for me, not so much for you.
-Leave him alone.- Haku hugged the boy.- he isn't the one to blame. He isn't Natsu, not Shikamaru.
Sasuke got away from his brother, and he walked up to Naruto.
-Why he.- he pointed at Sasori.- is massaging you? He is working in physiotherapy centre. Why did you say before that you can't feel your legs?
-I had an accident. I was paralysed from waist down. I managed to get almost entirely healthy, but because of what you did...I don't know how to say that. My body isn't entirely...
-He wanted to say, that when he's nervous...
-I fucking know what he meant! I have read some of your books out of boredom before. Get out of here! Tell your parents that me and Naruto need to talk.
-Don't do anything stupid.- Haku warned him.
When they were alone Uchiha sat on an armchair, and he pointed at the second one for Uzumaki to sit on.
-Why did we stay here?- he asked nervously after sitting down.
-Do you know that you are pissing me off?
-You're at it again. Yes I know! I know everything. You can't even stand looking at me. You prefer if I just died. I will let you get rid off me here and now, so go ahead.
-How often did you want to die?- he leaned towards Naruto.
-Excuse me?
-How often have you desired death? At school you said that you regret that...you didn't die.
-I wanted it a lot back then. Not because I ended up on wheelchair, I could adapt to that.
-Then why?- his voice was calm and quiet.
-Everyone that I have ever trusted has let me down, left me.  Even my own father. I felt betrayed by the fake friendship. I heard that you can tell who's a real friend during hardship. I met mine, and it turned out that they weren't friends. When you are lying in empty hospital room, when everything falls apart, you see your future in black colours, you feel lonely...Then death is the only thing that you can think about.-he wiped tear from his eye.- The awareness that you got no one to support you, to talk to you, is painful. Even when you got mother and brother, who would do anything for you, you still feel lonely.
The room became silent. Sasuke broke the silence. He didn't look at him.
-I was eight years old. I had pancakes for breakfast. It was snowing outside. My parents were discussing getting new furniture for my room. They wanted to pick me up after school, so I could choose what I like. I was dreaming about pirate room. Bed looking like a ship...I saw one like that on TV. I was so close to getting it. I waited at school for them, but they didn't come to get me. My mother's sister did. I was thinking that she will give me a lift to the shop, and they would be waiting there for me together with my older brother. I was totally wrong. I could see her crying, I asked her why but she wouldn't tell me. I found out that they died once my whole family gathered at the house. After they lifted me to school, they had collided with the truck. My parents died instantly, and my brother on the way to hospital. I was so excited at school, thinking about spending afternoon with them, but they were already gone at that time. The world collapsed for me. After the funeral I ended up in orphanage, because no one from my family took me in. My mother's sister already had four children, and she didn't want another. Naruto stared at his face wet from tears, he couldn't believe that Sasuke opens himself in front of him.-You know orphanage for someone who had home, seems like hell. I suddenly became alone. Eight years old boy lost among other children, often older, cruel, in a place that was scaring him. I met Haku there. Some twelve years old with too much testosterone, if it's right to say that about a child, attacked Haku. I helped him, trusted him and I wasn't alone any more.
-Why...did you tell me about that? You hate me.- he wiped his face with a shirt.
-I can see that you didn't have an easy life either, just like me. Maybe that's a reason. We became alone for different reasons, but I won't let anyone hurt me, Haku, or any other member of my new family.
-From fear of getting hurt, you preferred hurting me? Wouldn't it better to just ignore me?
-I couldn't because you look just like him. With small difference of eye and hair colour.
-Like who? Since we are having an honest conversation, I want you to tell me.
Sasuke stood up and walked up to a window, it was dark behind it.
-Natsu. His name was Natsu. He was fucking sweet and cute, like an angel. He also left me. He was my first love since we were fourteen years old.
-Did he break up with you?- Naruto stood next to him.
-He died when we were sixteen years old. He had Leukaemia. When he was in hospital I promised him that once he gets well, we would go and see an ocean together. That we would drink cocktails, sunbath and make love at night. I begged him not to leave me, but he didn't listen.
-I'm sorry for your loss.
-The separation was hard, and I didn't think about him till you showed up. I decided to crush you. I was angry at the fact that you were alive, and he's not...
-You didn't even know me. What about Shikamaru?
-He was a boy from an older class. I liked him and I knew he is like me. He rejected me. He told my orientation publicly to everyone at school. That's when I became tougher, I began to rule the school, and crush those that I saw as a danger. Kiba and Haku were always by my side. They had to, otherwise as a gay if I was alone...you know what would happen.
-Aha. You used me to improve your status, and you bullied me because I dare to look like him. You didn't even care about how I feel. I can understand you partly, but...- his voice broke down.
-But?
-I hold a grudge against you, for treating me that way.
-You got a right to.-he said with cold tone and he left the room.
Naruto sat on the floor. Not only his life was fucked up in recent years. He was thinking about Sasuke's behaviour. About his confessions, and about feelings that his tongue made him feel. He touched his neck. He didn't want to admit this, but he would like to repeat it. He wanted to feel those shivers again, caused by Sasuke's touch.



















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Difficult love - Chapter 4

-Yes.
-Love as love or love?- Uzumaki kept pushing on him, and he didn't know why himself.
-I don't understand- he looked at him.
-You know...
-Wait, are you thinking that I love him as a man?- Naruto's blushing face was more than enough response.- Sasuke has great body, but I wouldn't be able to love him as a man, I'm not gay. I love him as a friend and as a brother.
-Brother?- Naruto had no idea that a massage session, will give him so much information.
-He was adopted too.
-I didn't know that Sasuke was from orphanage.- he sat comfortably when Sasori was done with the massage. Sasori sat next to him on the table.
-I think that I can tell you roughly some things. I don't want you to see him as a monster. He was there for 2 years. His parents and an older brother died in a car accident. He ended up in orphanage, because there was no one who wanted to take care of him. He met Haku there. He saved him from getting beaten up by an older boy. He was eight years old himself. During those two years a strong bond connected them. They were always together everywhere. They would jump into a fire to save one another, back then and today. Later my parents adopted Haku, and seeing how boys can't separate, they decided to take Sasuke as well. He never fully accepted the fact that his family died, and that he became my brother. That's why he always calls me a friend, and my parents uncle and aunt. He never agreed to change his surname. Even if he never accepted the loss of his parents, he let himself get adopted, because he wanted to be with Haku. So you see, he suffered a lot. He is scared to gain something and get attached to it, so he wouldn't suffer later from the loss. He only let us get close to him. He tried to get closer to other people, but it always turned out bad. He is always scared of rejection, it makes him aggresive. He has a good heart though. You know what?
-What?
-I like you.- he flicked his nose and he began to pack his things.
-You changed topic quickly. Thanks by the way, I wouldn't expect you to tell me so much. Why did you do it?
-My sweet secret.- he made a lip sealed sign.- We will see each other again next week at 3 pm at the physiotherapy centre, ok?
-Fine thanks again. What about the money?
-Everything is paid for the few next sessions.
-Tell me one more thing, is Kiba your brother too?
-No, a neighbour.
***
 Next evening he wore elegant clothes.He styled his hair down, so they wouldn't be as messy as they were everyday. He wore colourful bracelet. He could hear his mom cook downstairs. His mind went back to the yesterday's conversation with Sasori. Sasuke adopted, orphan, not trusting, aggressive, his head got dizzy. He didn't sleep at night, because he was busy analysing the boy's behaviour. Why did he attack him, yet later he helped him. So what if Haku told him to do it, since he saw in Sasuke's beautiful eyes that he was worried. Beautiful? I would say cold like their owner. Fucking sexy owner. He shook his head trying to get rid off those unwanted thoughts. He was wondering what's the meaning of everything. Instead of feeling hatred when he thinks about him, he feels unknown warmth. How is that possible, he shouldn't feel that way after what he said to him.
He pressed his forehead against the cold mirror in a room. Tomorrow he's back to school, and surely that warmth will be replaced with stress. He looked through the window. Day turned into a darkness. Horrible rainy day was fading in our memories. No, no he doesn't try to change the topic, everything that he sees reminds him of Sasuke. Since when did he think of him as Sasuke and not Uchiha? I heard that he likes rain. That's what Sasori said before leaving. He also said that Sasuke is scared of rejection, and that makes him aggressive. But when would he reject him? Did the words that he wrote on that paper, hurt him so much that he said those cruel words? Impossible because Sasuke isn't gay, so those words meant nothing. He took a deep breath.
-Yea, tomorrow I will surely began to hate you again.
Again? He never felt that towards him. Yeah he's bad, but he doesn't hate him. He's not able to feel hate. Not even towards his father, or the people that left him.
-Naruto your brother brought over Hinata.- he heard his mother's voice.
Hinata, the girlfriend of his brother, was meant to eat supper with them today, to meet them. He was just hoping that she won't turn out to be full of herself, like all the girls that Gaara was meeting up with before. Although he has never invited any to his house before. He suspected that he needed only them for bed. He was hoping that this supper will occupy his mind, so that he wouldn't think about Sasuke. He went downstairs and he greeted a girl with long dark blue hair and almost white eyes.
-She looks rather unique. I have never seen anyone with such eye colour.
-Hinata Daishi, nice to meet you Naruto.- the girl shook his hand with a wide smile.
-Daishi? Is that surname stalking me, it would be nice if she said that she has nothing to do with Sas...pfff...Uchiha.
-That's Sasori's sister.- said Gaara.- you met him few days ago. I didn't even know that they were siblings.
-Of course, I expected that.
Mom invited them to the dining room.
-Sit down and serve yourself. I'm very happy that I could meet you. Gaara told me a lot about you.
-I hope that he didn't say anything bad.
-He was saying only the best things.
-Mom!
-It's OK son. Hinata should know that you treasure her. Naruto could see a shy smile on the girl's lips. She seemed to be nice, and he won't judge her by her brother.
-Do you attend school?- asked mom.
-I study pedagogy and I'm getting a degree from Spanish. In the future I would also want to get a degree from Italian too, which I'm studying.
-You are ambitious.
-I like learning languages, and I would want to share this knowledge with children.
-Have you got any siblings?
-Mom stop questioning her.-said Gaara
-I don't mind. Every mother has a right to know who her child is meeting with. I got a brother and two adopted brothers. My parents always wanted to have a big family, since mom couldn't have more children, she adopted two boys.
-It's nice to have a big family. Do you want more tea?- she asked.
-Yes please. It's nice here, so calm. At my home there's always something going on, mainly because of Sasuke and Sasoru. Naruto reacted to that name straight away. Will it always be that way? Even if he was lost in his thoughts, hearing that name brings him back. He began listening at the right time, Hinata invited them over to her house on Saturday.
-Mom would be happy to have guests. She leads an open house, so many people come and go.
-I would love to, but tomorrow evening I'm gone for delegation. I will be back on Sunday, but Naruto would gladly come, right?
-What? Me? I have no intention of going there. Yes, thank you for the invitation.-he smiled slightly.
-I'm glad.
He wanted to die. He agreed, agreed. His stupid lips were meant to say something else. Maybe he will manage to get away. He can say that he feels unwell, and he won't come. No, he can't do that. His mother and brother will be worried. Whatever, if till then the world won't end then he can go. He can check if Sasuke is so cruel at his own house too.
Hinata turned out to be a nice girl. Family is very important to her. My mother came to like her a lot. Naruto liked her too, and he even started a conversation with her about favourite comedies.
At 9 pm Gaara gave her a lift home, and Naruto helped his mom wash the dishes.
-Beautiful girl, right?- his mom broke the silence. She passed him a cleaned plate to dry.
-She's pretty.
-I wonder when you will find someone. You can't be alone all the time. At your school there's surely a lot of girls, who are interested in you.
-I want to focus on studying. I'm not interested in dating.- he didn't look her in the eyes.
-Studying won't run away, and you won't be young forever. I think that you should meet up with one. My friend has a daughter...
-Why are you so persistent?!- he suddenly raised his voice.
-Don't talk to me that way!
-I'm sorry. For now I rather be alone.
-I understand, that...
-No mom you don't understand, I'm not ready to explain it to you. Can I go to my room?
-Go. Don't forget to pack your stuff to school.

He closed the doors and he jumped on his bed, while getting a book on his way. He forced himself to read one chapter, but he was so irritated that he couldn't focus. He put the book away, and he turned on his stomach, while putting his hands under the chin.
-She thinks that I wouldn't want to meet with anyone. It's the opposite, I feel bad alone. Especially when I see that people have someone. How can I tell her that I prefer boys? How can I tell anyone. Only Sasuke knows...I think, unless he was just blabbering. The fact is though that I told him, I didn't deny that I like men. Oh God.- he turned around on his back and he covered his face with his hands.- He won' let me live tomorrow.
***
Tomorrow came fast, but what Uzumaki has been worried about didn't happen. Sasuke was avoiding him, however he could feel him looking at him. Naruto didn't know what's better, being treated like a boy for making jokes, or be ignored. He caught himself on the fact that he preferred the first option. At least he knew what to expect, and what Uchiha was planning. He wanted to get home, but lessons dragged forever . Finally after eight hours he left school. The sun shone outside, even so it was cold. The walk to the bus stop was awaiting him. Only after getting fully recovered, he could get a driving licence.
He stopped once he saw the famous trio. This time he wouldn't let them off. He put his head high and he walked passed them.
-Ey, Uzumaki.- hearing Sasuke's voice after few days have passed, made him shiver. He wasn't sure though if it was from fear or pleasure.
-What do you want?
Haku walked up to him.
-How are you feeling?
-Ee...
-Very intelligent response.- Sasuke gave him an evil look.
-Good, but not thanks to you.
-What was that, that you fell like dead?- Kiba laughed.
-Your friend led to that, didn't he tell you about it? Too bad that you weren't there, you would enjoy watching that drama scene.- he said to Inuzuka. He didn't know why but he preferred Sasuke over that asshole, who liked playing on his cost.- You like such scenes right Kiba? You like laughing at humiliated people. Uchiha provides you entertainment, huh? Tell me are you having fun?
-I'm bored. It could be better.
-Sure. If I died you would have great fun with him.- he pointed at Sasuke.- Don't count on it. I have a bus soon, so I must go, but first I will tell you that we will see each other tomorrow at evening for supper, Sasuke.
-What supper?
-Oh you don't know anything? Your sister is dating my brother, and we have been invited over to your house. See you at 6 pm.
Sasuke grabbed his wrist, when the boy wanted to leave.
-Bullshit!
-Ask your sister Hinata.
-Lies.- he mumbled.
-You will find out...
Sasuke grabbed his arms and he put his face closer to his. They almost touched each other's noses. Uzumaki's heart pounded like crazy. He was surprised that it wasn't from fear. His face was so close, his eyes were looking angrily, and at the same time they were lost. His warm breath with a smell of mint, made him scared of his own feelings. He saw Uchiha looking at his lips, and then at his eyes again.
-Get lost blondie!- he hissed. He pushed him away and he walked away, while combing his hair with his fingers. Kiba ran after him.
-Are you feeling well?- asked Haku.
-Why do you keep asking that?
-You look as if you got a fever.
-I'm fine. It's nice of you for asking.Your friend looks as if he is too hype. He should take medication for relieving stress, instead of exploding on me.
-He is pretty nervous, lately a lot. When I ask him what's wrong he won't tell me.
-Thank you for your concern, but I must go. Think some things through, otherwise I will go crazy.- he added in his thoughts.
-Are you really coming over to us for a supper?
-I don't know any more if I will. You know.- he looked at him.-You are a nice person.
-I can be mean.
-Like everyone, but from the trio, without looking at our first encounters, you turned out to be the most nice. He walked to to the bus stop with many confusing feelings. He saw those pretty eyes in his mind. Damn no,no.no, it's not like that! Those eyes are ugly. And their owner is disgusting...he's great, even with that horrible personality.
-Darn it!- that was his reaction when he missed the bus, and towards his unknown feelings. As if it wasn't enough it began to rain. Fate keeps putting more burdens along the way, but everyone needs to suffer, in order to know happiness. He began walking home, what would take roughly twenty minutes.


















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Difficult love - Chapter 3

He felt uneasy feeling his stare directed straight at him. Even so, he took a closer look at who is accompanying him. Apart from Haku, Kiba and that blondie who was always by Inuzuka's side, there was one more boy. He had red hair, and greyish-brown eyes that could see through everyone, and he looked older. He took a glance at Sasuke, he tried to figure out what he's looking at, and the he looked at the blonde-haired boy. He asked his friend something, and after he replied he stood up. Naruto swallowed his saliva nervously, when the red-haired boy was walking towards their table.
-Hi. My name is Sasori.
-Hi. I'm Naruto.
Gaara looked at the guy that came up.
-Sasori? Man what are you doing here?- he stood up and gave him a warm greeting by bumping fists.
-I came to eat something. I'm with my friends, wanna join us? Your friend should know them, they are in the same school.
-It's my younger brother. We will gladly join, right Naruto?- he took his cola and pizza.
The boy didn't feel like sitting with Uchiha, but even if his brother asked he had nothing to say. Unwillingly he stood up and fallowed the guys. As if it wasn't bad enough, the only free spot was next to Uchiha. He sat down while staring at the table.
-Why are they forcing me to sit with them?- he wanted to run away.- He will kill me after I ran away from school, and he must be thinking that I'm thinking that he's...
Someone put a drink and pizza in front of him.
-Here you go, you forgot to take it with you.- smiled Gaara.- Cheer up. No one will eat you here.
-Thank you, but I'm not hungry.
-You are losing your appetite fast.- his brother sighed.
Naruto felt warmth coming from Sasuke's body. They were touching with their arms and he tried to move away from him. He was scared that the boy will shout at him tomorrow, whining that he had to sit next to him and additionally touch him. He moved away from him almost till the edge of the seat.
-You will fall if you move a little further away.- said Sasuke.
-No, it's good that way.
-Are you afraid of me?
-No.
-Then move closer.
-Fuck off!- he shouted and everyone looked at him.
-Well, well Sasuke that boy has some verve.- said Kiba's girlfriend.
-Well I have such impact on others.- he said as if he had nothing to do with it.
-Sasori how do you know Gaara?- asked Haku.
-We studied together for a couple of months. Gaara was one year older, but we partied together till the morning.
-Good times. Do you remember Aiko?
-That brunette with curly hair?
-Yea.-he confirmed.
-It's hard to forget her. Biggest slut at the university. She gave herself to whoever she could.
-I heard that she got married and she has two children.
-People change, but I would never get married with a girl, that has no self respect.
Naruto listened to the conversation between Gaara and Sasoru. Before he realised he got relaxed and time started to pass fast. He didn't say anything, he just listened. Sasuke didn't speak much either. He felt once in a while that he's looking at him. His body warmth felt somehow pleasant.
***
Everyone left the pizzeria after two hours, and when Naruto finally was on his bed he began thinking about the entire situation. Deep in his heart he felt like he misses Sasuke's warmth.
-Why? I hate him. Every time I go to school when I think that he's there, I can feel my stomach squeeze from stress.  Then why do I want it to be morning already?
After such thoughts, he got tired and fell asleep.
***
The class was filled with whining and argues, because biology teacher gave them a test and thirty minutes to fill everything.
-No whining. You won't have trouble in completing it if you paid attention during lessons at least once.- he sat behind the desk and he read his book.
Unexpected tests weren't pleasant for Uzumaki either. He was a good student, but he hated such surprises. He took a glance at Sasuke. The boy started filling the test in full focus.
-He is so calm, when he doesn't tease me he can be so delicate towards Haku. They must be very good friends, if he had kissed his lips and hugged him. Yesterday he wasn't bad either. What's wrong with me? Few moments at pizzeria and I began having odd thoughts about that jerk.
He looked away when Sasuke looked at him. He looked at his test sheet, and he came to conclusion that the questions are surprisingly easy, he began to fill everything.
The noise coming from teacher's phone signalled that the test is over. The teacher told the students from first row to collects all the sheets behind them. Then he gave them a homework, saying that if they won't do it, no one will get away with it like last time. The lesson was over.
Naruto saw a crumbled piece of paper landing on his desk. He raised his eyebrows from surprise, he straightened the paper, it was torn from a textbook. It had written a question on it. The handwriting was really neat unlike his. He was always impressed by good handwriting.
Are you into me, that you were staring at me so intensively? Are you gay? S.U
He had no doubts about who "S.U" was. He quickly replied.
Get lost Sasuke. GET LOST MORON! Even if you were the last man one earth, I wouldn't want you.
He didn't care that he just told him his orientation. He threw the paper on his table and he left the class. He walked up to his locker, when he opened it, someone's hand closed it. The sound of the locker doors getting shut violently grabbed attention of some people close by.
-Listen, don't talk to me that way!- he turned the boy towards him, and he pushed him against the locker.- Naruto has been tired of being constantly pushed and thrown against the walls, one day his back will snap.-And don't stare at me. Yesterday my friend invited you and your brother to our table, and I had to put up with it.  If you will say that I'm stupid or something along the lines one more time, then even your brother won't save your ass. I will beat you up into a pulp. I know guys like you. Poor little ...- he lowered his voice into a whisper, so only they could hear.- The fact that you saw me kissing Haku doesn't mean that I'm a fag, and even if I was I wouldn't pay attention to someone like you. You are no one, little trash, who isn't even good enough to lick my shoes. Do you understand? You are annoying, fucking blondie. You could just die!
-Sasuke!- shouted Daishi who was next to him like always.
Naruto looked at his shoes, he could feel tears forcing themselves on his eyes. He didn't know why those words, which he heard more than once, coming from Sasuke's lips for the first time has hurt him like hell. As if his body was breaking into pieces, like a glass. As if his heart began to bleed with irrational pain.
Sasuke hit the locker with his fist and he backed off with intention of leaving.
-You're right, I should die. You have no idea how much I regret that I haven't.- whispered Naruto. His books fell from his hands. He felt something that he was afraid of. He couldn't do anything and he began to fall down, at the last moment Haku grabbed him. If he haven't he would hit the floor with his head.
-Not now, not like this.- he was thinking desperately. His body was fighting against the wave of all the negative emotions. He felt humiliated and betrayed by his own legs. His tears flowed down his cheeks, despite all his efforts to stop them.
-Are you OK?- asked Haku who got scared.
-I can't feel my legs. I can't stand up.
Haku looked with angry eyes at his friend.
-Maybe you could help him, huh? Something is wrong with him, he has to be taken to the school nurse. I can't manage to carry him.
-You really don't feel your legs?- asked Sasuke, with slightly worried tone.
-Not like you care about that! You will have another reason to make fun of me. What are you doing?
Sasuke walked up to the boy and he put his hands under his knees, with second one he grabbed him under his arms.
-I'm taking you to the nurse.
-No way, I won't allow you to carry me!.- he began fidgeting.
-Otherwise I will drop you.- Naruto could feel Sasuke picking him up, and he hugged his neck.
-How much do you weight? You are so light.
-I weight enough.
Their eyes met for a second but then both of them looked away,
Sasuke brought Naruto to the nurse, and he placed him on bed. He told her what happened and he stood next to him. The nurse was informed about his past, and she gave him pills to calm him down, seeing how he trembles and his eyes are wet.
-You had to be really nervous to be so effected.
-Lately I'm nervous all the time.- he gave Sasuke an angry look.- He can leave.
-Your friend is worried about you.
-He's not my friend. He carried me here, because he had to.- he highlighted the last words.
-In that case please leave.
Sasuke left without saying anything.
Naruto sighed with relief. He could feel his legs a bit.

His mother in panic picked him up from school and brought him home. The doctor that has been called, said that the boy will be OK, but he has to rest for few days. Unfortunately because of this, he had to skip the massage that he has been waiting so long for. He felt terrible. Additionally the painful words that Sasuke said, still stayed in his mind.
-Son, I took some days off.-he didn't know why since the doctor said that he is OK. She sat on a sofa next to him.- I talked with your physiotherapist ,and he said that the boy who is meant to massage you, can also do it at the client's home. So I made an appointment with him today.
-Are you crazy! I feel fine I can go to the physiotherapy centre alone.  Don't treat me as if I'm a disabled person.
-I don't treat you like one...
-No, you don't at all. Then why do I feel this way?
-Just for today, OK? You can go to the physiotherapy centre next time.
Gaara came to the living room and he sat on an armchair.
-Mom I got a favour.
-What is it?
-I want to invite Hinata tomorrow over to our house for a supper. I hope that you have nothing against it, and that you can cook something.
-That must be something serious, since you are inviting a girl over. I'm glad that you want to settle down.
-Great.- he took it as a yes.- I will call her, or not, I will meet her. Thanks mom.- Gaara left the living room all cheerful.
-And you can take a shower, because your massager will be here in an hour.Move your ass, I have to clean here.
-Fine, fine. One more thing, do I have to take part in that supper tomorrow?
-Of course.
***
He went inside the shower cabinet, and he ran hot water. He closed his eyes trying to focus on water that was hitting his skin. He loved water. The peach body gel smell filled the cabin. He could spend forever in here. He felt free here from his worries. He was hoping that the massage that is awaiting him, will relax him. Maybe not to the point when one rainy day, he fell asleep on the table during a massage and then he felt stupid. Those were the moment when the massage stopped causing pain, and it was pleasant. He smiled for the first time since the past few days.

He went downstairs in bathrobe. He heard voiced coming from the living room. He noticed shoes and a coat by the doors who belonged to a stranger. He came to conclusion that the boy has came and he is in the living room. The massage table was ready, and all the other necessary things.
-That's my son Naruto.
-We know each other.
Uzumaki moved his eyes from the table to a boy. He remembered those red hair.
-Sasori?
-You know each other?- the mother looked a little confused.
-Yes. We met not long ago at the pizzeria.
-That's great that you already met. I will leave you alone.
Uzumaki stared at the red haired boy.
-You are the massager?
-I heard that I'm one of the best ones, but I wouldn't say that myself out of my modesty.- he winked at me.- I had no idea that I'm going over to your house.
-My surname didn't ring a bell?
-Surnames often repeat. Then shall we begin? Please cover your waist with this towel and lay on your stomach. Naruto did as he said and he put the robe away. He was lying down gently on the table. He felt a bit uneasy. Additionally he got goosebumps from the fact that he knows Sasuke. That made him want to ask about that.
-Do you know Sasuke Uchiha well?
-Yes. He is best friend of my brother, however...
-Brother?- Naruto interrupted him.
-Haku Daishi is my brother.- Sasori rubbed the massage oil on his calf muscle, and he began pressing the right spots to relax them.
-You don't look alike.
-Haku was adopted by my parents.
-I didn't know, that...
-He doesn't talk about it.
-What happened that he ended up in an orphanage?
-He has been abandoned right after his birth.
-That's sad.
Sasori pulled his towel up gently and he began massaging his thighs.
-Very, but now he has us. How long have you not been able to walk?
-Two years.
-I wouldn't be able to tell. Your muscles are in good condition.
-Even when I was on a wheelchair I still exercised. It was my goal to walk again, especially after I found out that it's possible. At the beginning I didn't believe in this therapy, but with time effects showed and I can walk now. Only sometimes my legs go numb.
-We will do everything so it won't happen.
The man took a lot of time to massage every muscle on his legs. He felt slight pain, but pleasant at the same time.
-Now we will take care of your back.
-You don't have to tell me what to do. I know what the massage is about.
-Then, OK.- he laughed quietly.- you're still stiff.
-A bit. Can you tell me something about Sasuke?
-He's a great guy. Sasuke is a kind of person that once you get his trust , friendship, he will never let you down. Unless you let him down, then there's no coming back. He's the type of person who you wouldn't want as an enemy.
-He sees me as enemy.
-Why do you say that?
-He doesn't like me. Ohhh that feels good.- he said quietly when the boy was massaging his arms.- Can you tell me why is he picking on me?
-He does that?- Sasori stopped for a moment.
-I beg you don't tell him, that I told you.
-I promise.
-He does that since the beginning. I didn't do anything to him, and he reacts to me so aggressively.
-I don't read his mind, but I think that it's because you resemble someone he knows.
-Who?- he turned on his back. Sasori began massaging his legs again.
-A boy who he knew years ago, but I can say no more. The rest is a secret, I won't betray his trust.
-Why?
-Because I love him too much.
The blonde guy sat up and he looked at the red-haired boy.
-You love him?

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Difficult love - Chapter 2

A week passed since Naruto has been attending the new school. He didn't complain about the teachers, they were better than the ones at his previous school. He understood the topics that were being covered instantly. Even chemistry which used to be very difficult for him, he began to understand it. The teacher was able to explain everything very well, that  the subject seemed very easy. Unfortunately not everything was great. Uchiha made it hard for him to sleep at night. Naruto tried not to get into that jerk's way, but he picked on him for no reason, and his eyes were terrifying him. Today was the worst because he felt humiliated and embarrassed. On dining hall, when the boy was walking with food that he got from the buffet, and was searching for a free table, that jerk made him trip over.
-Look how clumsy he is.- he heard Uchiha's voice.
He got up, and looked angrily at him. Kiba who sat next to him laughed ironically.
-You are...- he wanted to say something, but when he heard everyone laugh he ran to a bathroom. He wanted to hide himself and clean his uniform from food. His attempts were useless, because the stain wouldn't go away.
-Fuck that.- he leaned on the sink and he looked at his reflection in the mirror. He knew that things might not be easy. He had encountered types like Sasuke before, but Uchiha is the most stubborn out of all.- He thinks that if he is handsome, rich and popular he can do anything. Did I just thought again that he is handsome? Damn Naruto you should get checked up. Well I got eyes and I can tell he's not ugly. I preferred though when I got bullied by those morons from second year, when I was on a wheelchair. Muscled from steroids, ugly and drugs fucked up their mind.
 He got back to cleaning the stain once again. He was wondering at the same time, why is everyone bullying him. He didn't do anything to be punished on every step. He would understand the hate for him being gay, but no one knew about his orientation, so why? His delicate, lightly tanned skin? His blonde hair? Was that his fault that he got those characteristics after his father? Before the accident everything was different. No one has bothered him. Was it because of his aura back then, is the current aura making people stay away from him? Back then of course he wasn't alone and...no, he was alone. Those people from before were by his side only as long as he was healthy. That's why he preferred to stay away from people now, and maybe that's the reason. Is he an easy target for other people?
  He saw in the mirror how bathroom doors are opening, and Sasuke is coming in with his minions.
-Look at that, the new guy is doing laundry. Is something wrong boy?
-You know well, and I would gladly wash that stupid brain of yours too.
-What did you say?
-He said that...- Kiba began speaking, but Sasuke interrupted him
-I know exactly what he said.- he mumbled and he looked at Naruto.- Oi Uzumaki it's not nice to speak to me that way. But I can forgive you, because I'm in a good humour. I told you on our first meeting to stay away from me beautiful.
The boy couldn't stand it any more, and he turned to him in anger.
-You are the one that always gets in my way. You are the one fallowing me, tripping me, you appear wherever I am! What did I do to you? I noticed that you behave that way only towards me!
-You are new and everyone else has been already trained by me.
-And what the fuck is that, a military academy?!
-Don't talk back to me. I hate boys like you.
-Can you tell me why?
Sasuke pushed him against the wall and stood close to him, without touching him.
Kiba and Haku looked closely at what's going on.
-What are those questions for?- he hissed.
-Are you not able to answer?
-You are like an insect for me, and I feel like crushing you.
-Why?- he looked into his beautiful eyes, and he did his best not to look away.
-I don't like you. You look like someone weak, and I hate such people. Weak human is destroying everything. He grabs everything and pulls it on the bottom together with himself.
-And what? You want to destroy me? What kind of explanation is that anyway?
-You are a small worm, which was raised in a house full of love. Who thinks that he can do anything and that there's no pain in this world.
-What can you know about me? You don't know who I am, and what I feel. You don't know me, and your twisted mind...
-Shut up!
The next thing that Naruto felt was a strong hit in his cheek, luckily it was from an opened hand. He began to lose strength in his legs, he stood too long, and he didn't do any exercise in the morning. Additionally this situation that made him very nervous. He closed his eyes and he tried to calm down.
-Sasuke be quiet, because someone might hear you.- said Haku.- It's better to get out of here.
-Do you want to take fun away from him?- sighed Kiba.- The lesson started anyway, who would come in here?
-Did you hear boy what my friend said? Here's your answer, bullying someone gives me pleasure. It's a perfect fun, and you caught my eye. You will be like a robot, doing what I want once I'm done with you.
-Sasuke you are cruel.- said Kiba with a spark in his eye.
-Wouldn't I be more cruel by ignoring him? He caught my attention, so he should be happy that he's not invisible.
-Oh how I would want to be invisible.- thought Naruto.- Fuck yourself Jerk!
-Better don't annoy him.- laughed Kiba.
-Uchiha come.- Daishi grabbed his friend's arm.- leave him alone. You don't want to end up in trouble with headmaster, if your father...
-Haku shut up!- Sasuke pushed his hand away. He looked at him as if he wanted to warn him.
-If you don't want that then I can stop speaking.- Haku got offended by his words and he slammed the bathroom's door behind him.
-Darn.- he looked at Naruto.- You look terrible.- he grabbed his shirt and ripped it - now it's better. Kiba let's go.- he left the bathroom quickly.
Naruto sat down by the wall. He hid his face in his hands, but he didn't cry. He had no tears left, he used all of them long ago. He needed a moment to relax. His cheek didn't even hurt any more. Looks like he overestimated the situation, and the hit wasn't that hard.
He stood up and he buttoned his uniform, and he went to class. He knew that he will be in trouble for being late, but he couldn't miss his lovely biology lesson. In class he didn't encounter the evil trio, he felt relief. The teacher accepted his excuse about feeling unwell, since he knew about his past. He even wanted to send him to a nurse, but the boy said that he feels OK now.

During a break he went outside, to gasp some fresh air. He leaned on the school's wall. The wind was cold, and it began to rain lightly. His attention has been caught by two people sitting on a bench under a tree. He recognized Sasuke and Haku straight away, who were busy talking, they haven't even noticed that he came closer and the fact that they were getting wet from the rain. He usually wasn't curious, but now this feeling took over.
-Haku I'm sorry for shouting on you. I didn't want to. I know that I only got you and Kiba. I only trust both of you. You are the closest people to me.
-I know, but don't do it again.
-I won't shout on you. I'm sorry.- he kissed the boy gently on his lips and hugged him. He got totally shocked by what he just saw.- You are like a brother to me honey. When we first met, I always felt that we will always be together. You, Kiba and me.
   Haku smiled and he looked at Naruto. He stepped back from Sasuke who has been hugging him, and he pointed at him to show that they aren't alone. Sasuke got off the bench and he grabbed Uzumaki's wrist.
-Who gave you a permission to peek on us?! What did you hear?!
-I just came. I only saw that kiss, but I won't tell anyone, really. I have nothing against it.
-You don't? Why not?- he asked in a calm tone.
-Let me go!- he got free from his grip and he ran away. He ran very fast along the pavement, while getting wet from the rain. The best thing was that legs carried him with loads of strength without hurting or going numb, while running away. Running away from what? Truth, that he wanted to hide? Maybe he wasn't alone, maybe that cruel boy was like him?
 It was strange for him that Sasuke treats him so bad, while for this boy he was so gentle and delicate,
-Maybe he's not that bad?
He stopped by the bus stop, while calming his breath, and waited for the bus. He should get a driving license, and ask mom to get him a car. He doesn't want to push through the crows, or wait for that always late transport. He could ask brother to give him a ride, but lately he had no time for anything.

He entered the house quietly while taking off his shoes and coat. He looked at his watch, in two hours he has an arranged meeting with a doctor. Mom was meant to come from work early, to get him there and discuss the costs. He was hoping that the physiotherapist will be good and will make him entirely healthy.
He went upstairs and he bumped into someone.
-You are here already? You were meant to be done in an hour.- said Gaara.
-I had to leave early.
-Are you feeling unwell?
-No, everything is fine.- he walked in the direction of his room. On his way he took off the unifrom, forgetting about his ripped shirt.
-What happened to your shirt?
-Shirt?- he asked.
Gaara walked up to him and he pointed at the ripped material.
-Ah that. I had an encounter with some idiot.
-Encounter?!
-Don't get involved. It's my problem.- he went in his room and he took off his shirt.- I have to take a shower.
-You won't get away- He stood in front of him while looking him in the eyes.- Who did this to you?
-There is one guy who bullies me. Sasuke the centre of the world. I can take him on.- he entered the bathroom.- What, do you want to take a bath with me or just peek?- he asked when the brother wanted to come inside with him.
-I could wash your back.- Naruto slammed the doors in front of his face.- I was joking.
Naruto was tired of him sometimes. He treated him like a child. He took off his trousers and underwear, and he went to take a shower.

While wearing fresh clothes he went downstairs to a kitchen. He poured some juice and he went to a living room. He saw his brother staring at TV.
-Are you watching some reality show?- he sat next to him.
-It's a quiz show based on knowledge.
-You don't sin with your knowledge.
-Mom called. I have to give you a lift to the doctor.
-But mom was meant to discuss costs with him and the next visits.- said Uzumaki irritated.
-She called him and he is meant to show you everything on some papers.
-Aha. Then should we go?
-Who is that Sasuke?
-Who?
-You said that some Sasuke thinks he is the centre of the world. Who is he?
-A guy from my school, my class. He picks on me, sometimes calls me names. Normal.
-Bullshit! Is that normal for you?
-No, but what am I supposed to do? He will get bored. Hurry up, because there might be traffic jams at this time.- he wanted to avoid the conversation on this unpleasant topic.

Physiotherapy centre where in one of many offices, new physiotherapist was accepting patients, was in the centre of the town. Although even if there were traffic jams they arrived on time, Naruto was lying on a special bed, and a man who was around fifty years old was helping him in leg exercises.
-...5,4,3,2,1 good now put the leg down and do the same thing with the other one. Pull it up and hold it counting down from ten. Higher, till you feel pain.
Pain, always that. He didn't argue, he knew that it has to be this way. He did the exercises as he was told to, then the man invited him on a running machine.
-Today on your first visit I want to check how healthy are you. On the next one I want to use galvanic bath.
-They were always one of my favourite parts of sessions.
-And very helpful in treatment. You will also have massages two times a week. I will sign you up to the best guy. He has golden hands and he helps everyone. Good, now I will make it a bit harder and I will increase the speed. Your legs and muscles work great.
-That's thanks to the previous doctor. They are fine but sometimes they go numb. They get tired when I stand. They can walk, but they don't like standing.
-Your mom sent me your papers. We will do our best you and me, so you will be fully healthy, and you will be able to forget about wheelchair.
-Then can you tell me sir, why in moments of strong emotions.- he pointed at his legs.- They don't want to work.
-A lot depends on your brain, which sends wrong signals to your brain at such moments, but we can overcome this too.
The physiotherapist gave me an honest smile.

Two hours later they went to a pizzeria. They sat by the window. They ordered a big pizza with double cheese, ham and tomatoes and big cola. While waiting for their order Gaara went to a toilet. Naruto sat alone by the table, while looking at the people who were passing by. He felt good even if he was tired from exercises. Tomorrow he had an arranged meeting with a massager. He would prefer to spend this three afternoons differently, but he had no choice. He was smiling to himself and he became paralysed when he saw in the corner of the eye, that on table next to him sat a group of five cheerful people.
-Great...- resigned he leaned on the back of the chair.
-Why have you got such a face expression?- he trembled, when brother put a hand on his arm.
-What expression?
-As if you got something stuck in your ass.- he sat opposite to him.
-I just lost my appetite. I would prefer to go back home.- The waitress brought pizza to the their table.
-Yea sorry, but it's too late. We will eat and then we can go back.- he smiled widely, he thanked the girl and he began eating his half of the pizza.
Uzumaki heard cheerful laugh coming from the table next to them. He didn't want to look but some force made him, he held his breath in. Dark eyes were staring at him with curiosity.

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Difficult love - Chapter 1

He sat by the table in a dining room, with a worried expression on his face. He was concerned about today's day and he wasn't able to hide it. He moved his fingers across his damp hair, at the same time ruining  the efforts of his hard work to style them. He sighed.
He didn't even notice when a plate with few toasts with his favourite peach jam, appeared in front of him.

-Naruto are you worried about something?- his mother asked him.
-I'm a bit scared ,of going to a new school.- he began eating but stress made it difficult, he felt like every bite he took got stuck in his throat.
-There's no reason to be nervous. I know that you felt good at the old school, you had friends and you had to leave them, but you will see that you will meet new people and become friends with them.- said Kushina optimistically.
-Yea, for sure.- he said quietly.

He didn't want to explain to her that it's not about friends, who he didn't have anyway, his mother was too blind to notice. It was about adapting, which was unpleasant process for him. They had to move out because of his mother's work, they didn't move more than once a year, but it still was hard experience for him. While keep changing houses, people, towns, it made him feel like he lost all those years in which he was happy. He missed times when his family was completed and he had friends. Pseudo friends as he later found out. They left him in difficult times for him, his father wasn't any better. He couldn't accept having a disabled son and left. Maybe it was a good thing he knows now who he can count on. Still he would rather if that day during the spring never happened. 3 years ago Naruto while crossing the road was hit by a car, which was moving really fast on a red light. He became paralysed from waist down. He went through a breakdown, thanks to support of his mother and Gaara his older brother he felt better mentally and he began a painful rehabilitation. After long time exercises gave results. Now he could walk, although sometimes he would lose strength in his legs. It didn't matter thought because he didn't have to see the world from a wheelchair any more, he could stand on his own legs.

His mother sat beside him and put her hand on his.
-Tell me, what are you afraid of?
-Maybe of the fact that my legs will go numb, and I will fall on a corridor causing people to laugh at me. Plus I'm going to a new school in the middle of a school year. Everyone will stare at me as if I'm an alien.
-Like always you are imagining things which won't happen. Beside your legs are still in rehabilitation process and it happens rarely if you're not nervous. You will see everything will be fine.- she smiled widely, but it didn't make Naruto feel any better.
His brother entered a kitchen in cheerful mood opposite to his.
-Hi everyone - he opened a fridge and took out a carton of orange juice. He was about to take a sip, till he saw his mother looking at him.- OK I remember, cups are for that.
-Could you give Naruto a lift to school? I have to rush to the office now.
-Actually I can.
-Great.- Naruto stood up.
-Is there anything wrong with that, brother?
-You will talk about your new girlfriend again, for an entire way.- he said while putting the plate away.
-I got something to show off. We are only here for two weeks since we moved, and I already met someone. It's time for you to get some girl too.
-I got time for that.- He didn't want to say that he's not interested in girls, even if he felt like letting the entire world know about it. Maybe then his mother wouldn't try meeting him up with daughters of her friends, or even completely random girls, it makes him so embarrassed.
-Time, you always say that. You're eighteen years old, and you're still a virgin.
Naruto got annoyed by Gaara's words and he was about to say something, but a ring-tone interrupted him. Gaara picked up his phone with a happy expression.
-I'm listening babe.
Naruto rolled his eyes and he left the dining room, he didn't felt like listening to their sweet conversation. He had nothing against it, but in some moments it annoyed him, he wouldn't admit to it out loud but he is jealous of his brother, that he has someone close to him. He often feels lonely and sad because he's different.
 He went out in front of the house and he waited for his brother by the car. He looked around and he came to conclusion that they finally lived in a beautiful, calm area. Unfortunately with a nosy neighbour lady. He smiled to himself, when he saw curtains move in a house next to theirs. That's what happened every time someone left his house. He felt like waving to her, but he stopped himself when he remembered how Gaara got into trouble. When yesterday when he was backing with his mother's car he touched a grass on possession of that nosy and often irritated neighbour lady. He stood and he nicely waited for his brother.
After 10 minutes, during which Naruto's patience was being tested, his brother appeared in front of him.
-I will be late to school because of your chit-chats with that chick.
-I arranged to meet her this evening.- they entered the car.- I will give you a lift and I have to start looking for work. Since we had to move out, I had to leave my previous job.
-You are an adult, you could stay and live alone.
-I'm a head of a family since dad left us ,and I won't leave you guys alone.- he messed his brother's hair and started the car.

They got in front of the school 10 minutes later. The building was made from white bricks and it had a red roof. Around it there was a huge area covered with grass. There was a red path from the main gate leading to the school's entrance, and next to it there was a small parking.
-Then hang in there brother.- said Gaara.- If I won't be able to come later to get you, then I will call you.
-It's fine. I can manage alone. I'm able to use public transport.- he went out of the car and he looked at the building. He looked behind him and he heard a noise of his brother's car leaving.
-Now I'm alone on a battlefield- he took a deep breathe and he was about to head towards the entrance, when all of a sudden a red Suzuki Kizashi caught his attention. The car passed by really close to him, from fear that the car could crush his feet with the tires he jumped back. The car stopped at the school's parking. Soon two boys left the car. First one on the driver's seat was tall, skinny and his dark long hair landed gently on his back and they almost reached his fine ass. Although the second boy grabbed his attention more with short black sexy hairstyle, he had handsome and manly face features.  The guy moved like a panther, together with his companion they went inside the building. Naruto stood like this for a little longer, like hypnotised, being under the spell of that unknown guy. After few minutes he also went inside the building along with other students.
 The first thing he had to do was to go to a headmaster office, and from there he was meant to reach his new class. He took out a paper which mom prepared for him, and he read the number of floor and room where headmaster's office was located. At secretariat he has been informed that headmaster isn't here yet, but soon one of the teachers will come here and lead him to the classroom.  He sat on one of the chairs and he waited. The time kept moving forward, and the lesson's time was sooner and sooner.
-Are you nervous?- asked a young secretary, roughly she was in her thirties.
-I don't like being moved to a new school. Everything is new for me, I don't know anyone.
-I understand you. I had the same thing in my childhood. I can tell you that fear has big eyes, it's true in many situations. I spent the best years of my life here, but it was long time ago. Also-
A teacher entered the room and interrupted the woman in speaking.
-Where is the new student?
The secretary pointed at Naruto, who stood up nicely and greeted the teacher.
-From now on I'm your tutor. My name is Kurenai Yuhi. Come with me, I will lead you to the classroom and introduce you the students.
He fallowed the "president", as he called her in her mind. Somewhere near the stairs he heard laughs and footsteps of people coming upstairs. He recognized the two of them from the parking. Third one was a little shorter from the rest. He had red tattoos on his face, loads of earrings, and nicely styled browned hair, he also laughed the loudest. Next to them stood a slender blonde haired girl with feminine face features, and blue eyes, and she was hugging the boy's arm. When they were busy talking about the weekend, they didn't notice that the teacher was staring at them with annoyed face.
-Uchiha, Daishi, Inuzuka, why aren't you in class yet? You Ino have lessons downstairs, or am I wrong?- she asked with a sharp voice, and students reacted instantly. They turned around towards the source of the voice, which they didn't like. Naruto could see now the almost black eyes of the black haired boy. The stranger smiled towards his tutor.
-My favourite teacher. We were just heading to a lesson. Ino was just walking off her boyfriend. Please don't be worried, she will be on time for her first lesson- his dark eyes looked at the blonde guy- I don't know you.
-I'm new here.
-New? I will remember you.
Naruto felt a little fear when those beautiful eyes, sparkled with evil intention.
-Uchiha go inside the class!- shouted the teacher.- the rest too!

The tutor introduced Naruto to the whole class and she told him to take any free seat. The tables were for one person each, and the only free place was by the window in last row. He walked towards it while feeling all the twenty-five students stare at him. He haven't felt so stressed for ages like at that moment.Luckily it didn't take him long to get to his table, and he sat down. He looked to the right and he met the dark eyes again, they didn't have any warmth in them. He looked at the teacher pretending to be interested by what she says. Even so he still could feel his weird stare, and he was wondering what that guy wants from him. He tried not to pay attention to him, what was a rather hard task.

After lessons the teacher left. The dark-eyes boy stood up and walked to him. He leaned towards Uzumaki with a mocking smile.
-Were you the one staring at me and my friend, at the school ground this morning?
-Your friend almost hit me with a car.- Uzumaki looked at the long haired boy which was sitting by the desk next to him.
-When he goes, you have to get out of his way. We could forgive you since you are new here. In that case you have to know some things. My name is Sasuke Uchiha. I rule this school, especially this class. Without my permission you can't even spit, I eat boys like you for breakfast. And it gives me pleasure to see fear on their faces.
-Do you think I care about what your name is. What do you think you're doing? I don't intend to listen to you.- said Naruto. He packed his stuff and he wanted to leave.
Sasuke took a deep breath.
-You can't talk back to me.- he grabbed the boy's shirt and he threw him against the wall next to them.- Remember this once and for all boy, and don't go in my way because you will regret it. Do you understand?!
-Yes- He wanted to run away as far as possible, and never come back. Just by thinking that he has to sit here till afternoon everyday, it made him feel sick.
-Sasuke let him go, if someone sees you will be in trouble.- said the long haired boy.
-Haku you can see that I have to inform our little boy, about some important matters.-he let go off him, but he didn't step away. He was staring at Naruto's face who was doing his best not to blush. What could he do about the fact, that this jerk was fucking sexy.- You're cute Naruto, but don't get in my way, unless you want closer contact with me.- he stepped away, and walked to his friends.- Meet Haku and Kiba they are the most important people to me in this world. They are second in charge, and every word that they say is holy. Come on boys, the new guy knows who rules the school now.
Naruto breathed heavily, when they walked away. Before they left he heard one of them asking:
-Hey, why did you attack the youngster? He doesn't seem to be a nerd or a fink.
-He wakes irrational anger in me.-said the dark-eyed boy.

Naruto got surprised by hearing those words. He sat on a bench and leaned his chin on his hand.
I make him angry? He must be insane. I didn't do anything to him, and he tries to bully me. I wonder if he treats other people this way too. So what if he is handsome, if his personality is fucked up. Leader pfff. I have no intention of getting in your way, idiot. Rich asshole.

For the rest of the day Naruto had no trouble, because Sasuke wasn't at school. He went back home using a bus after he received a message from his brother, that he won't come to get him. The house was empty as he expected. He went to his room and he dropped himself on bed. He had to rest because his legs began to hurt him. He was hoping that mom will find him some physiotherapist soon. Therapy was meant to last two months more, so he could be sure that he won't go back on a wheelchair. He had no idea when he fell asleep.
He woke when it was dark outside. He got up, and he changed into casual clothes, then he headed downstairs. He smelled a sweet fragrance coming from the kitchen.
-Good that you woke.- his mother smiled.- Sit down the supper is ready, and later there will be some cake. It just got baked.
-When did you find time for all that?
-Today I was working till 3 pm, because there was some party at the company, but from tomorrow I will be working from morning till night.
-I don't understand why do you tire yourself so much with work, at the company.
-I love that work. Let's not talk about me, and tell me how was your day at school.
-Good, apart from one thing.
-Did something happen?- The mother stopped moving, when she was close to the table with casserole on the plate.
-One guy tried to mess with me, but I don't intent to get in his way, he should leave me alone.
-I hope so, you know that you can't get nervous.
-Yes, I know that strong emotions mess with my brain, and my legs go numb. If not that accident I would be normal, instead I'm disabled.
-You're not.
-The fact that I'm walking means nothing. Others treat me like one, when they found out about my past.
-You're not talking about your friends, right?- She gave him a huge piece of casserole.
-I trusted them, and they left me. Since then I'm alone, I have no one to talk to, no one to go out with, everything because of that accident! Sometimes I regret that I'm alive!- he exploded.
-Don't dare to say that!
-But it's true. I got you and brother, but so what if I'm alone!- he stood up, he didn't understand himself why he got so emotional.
-I didn't know that you feel lonely.
-I am lonely.- he looked at her calmly.- I will eat later. I will go exercise for a while. Could you find me a good physiotherapist? I want to finish recovering.
-I found some. Tomorrow I will make few calls, and I can always arrange it privately. I make so much money that we can afford it.
-Thank you.- Naruto said no more and he went to his room, and he sat on a physiotherapy bike. He exercised long, till he felt pain.
He saw an image of Sasuke in his head.
Great, now you will stalk me in my mind? I'm an idiot for thinking about him.
He got off the bike and he went to a bathroom. This day was tiring for him. He took a long and relaxing bath, he did his homework and he went to sleep.

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