-Love as love or love?- Uzumaki kept pushing on him, and he didn't know why himself.
-I don't understand- he looked at him.
-You know...
-Wait, are you thinking that I love him as a man?- Naruto's blushing face was more than enough response.- Sasuke has great body, but I wouldn't be able to love him as a man, I'm not gay. I love him as a friend and as a brother.
-Brother?- Naruto had no idea that a massage session, will give him so much information.
-He was adopted too.
-I didn't know that Sasuke was from orphanage.- he sat comfortably when Sasori was done with the massage. Sasori sat next to him on the table.
-I think that I can tell you roughly some things. I don't want you to see him as a monster. He was there for 2 years. His parents and an older brother died in a car accident. He ended up in orphanage, because there was no one who wanted to take care of him. He met Haku there. He saved him from getting beaten up by an older boy. He was eight years old himself. During those two years a strong bond connected them. They were always together everywhere. They would jump into a fire to save one another, back then and today. Later my parents adopted Haku, and seeing how boys can't separate, they decided to take Sasuke as well. He never fully accepted the fact that his family died, and that he became my brother. That's why he always calls me a friend, and my parents uncle and aunt. He never agreed to change his surname. Even if he never accepted the loss of his parents, he let himself get adopted, because he wanted to be with Haku. So you see, he suffered a lot. He is scared to gain something and get attached to it, so he wouldn't suffer later from the loss. He only let us get close to him. He tried to get closer to other people, but it always turned out bad. He is always scared of rejection, it makes him aggresive. He has a good heart though. You know what?
-What?
-I like you.- he flicked his nose and he began to pack his things.
-You changed topic quickly. Thanks by the way, I wouldn't expect you to tell me so much. Why did you do it?
-My sweet secret.- he made a lip sealed sign.- We will see each other again next week at 3 pm at the physiotherapy centre, ok?
-Fine thanks again. What about the money?
-Everything is paid for the few next sessions.
-Tell me one more thing, is Kiba your brother too?
-No, a neighbour.
***
Next evening he wore elegant clothes.He styled his hair down, so they wouldn't be as messy as they were everyday. He wore colourful bracelet. He could hear his mom cook downstairs. His mind went back to the yesterday's conversation with Sasori. Sasuke adopted, orphan, not trusting, aggressive, his head got dizzy. He didn't sleep at night, because he was busy analysing the boy's behaviour. Why did he attack him, yet later he helped him. So what if Haku told him to do it, since he saw in Sasuke's beautiful eyes that he was worried. Beautiful? I would say cold like their owner. Fucking sexy owner. He shook his head trying to get rid off those unwanted thoughts. He was wondering what's the meaning of everything. Instead of feeling hatred when he thinks about him, he feels unknown warmth. How is that possible, he shouldn't feel that way after what he said to him.
He pressed his forehead against the cold mirror in a room. Tomorrow he's back to school, and surely that warmth will be replaced with stress. He looked through the window. Day turned into a darkness. Horrible rainy day was fading in our memories. No, no he doesn't try to change the topic, everything that he sees reminds him of Sasuke. Since when did he think of him as Sasuke and not Uchiha? I heard that he likes rain. That's what Sasori said before leaving. He also said that Sasuke is scared of rejection, and that makes him aggressive. But when would he reject him? Did the words that he wrote on that paper, hurt him so much that he said those cruel words? Impossible because Sasuke isn't gay, so those words meant nothing. He took a deep breath.
-Yea, tomorrow I will surely began to hate you again.
Again? He never felt that towards him. Yeah he's bad, but he doesn't hate him. He's not able to feel hate. Not even towards his father, or the people that left him.
-Naruto your brother brought over Hinata.- he heard his mother's voice.
Hinata, the girlfriend of his brother, was meant to eat supper with them today, to meet them. He was just hoping that she won't turn out to be full of herself, like all the girls that Gaara was meeting up with before. Although he has never invited any to his house before. He suspected that he needed only them for bed. He was hoping that this supper will occupy his mind, so that he wouldn't think about Sasuke. He went downstairs and he greeted a girl with long dark blue hair and almost white eyes.
-She looks rather unique. I have never seen anyone with such eye colour.
-Hinata Daishi, nice to meet you Naruto.- the girl shook his hand with a wide smile.
-Daishi? Is that surname stalking me, it would be nice if she said that she has nothing to do with Sas...pfff...Uchiha.
-That's Sasori's sister.- said Gaara.- you met him few days ago. I didn't even know that they were siblings.
-Of course, I expected that.
Mom invited them to the dining room.
-Sit down and serve yourself. I'm very happy that I could meet you. Gaara told me a lot about you.
-I hope that he didn't say anything bad.
-He was saying only the best things.
-Mom!
-It's OK son. Hinata should know that you treasure her. Naruto could see a shy smile on the girl's lips. She seemed to be nice, and he won't judge her by her brother.
-Do you attend school?- asked mom.
-I study pedagogy and I'm getting a degree from Spanish. In the future I would also want to get a degree from Italian too, which I'm studying.
-You are ambitious.
-I like learning languages, and I would want to share this knowledge with children.
-Have you got any siblings?
-Mom stop questioning her.-said Gaara
-I don't mind. Every mother has a right to know who her child is meeting with. I got a brother and two adopted brothers. My parents always wanted to have a big family, since mom couldn't have more children, she adopted two boys.
-It's nice to have a big family. Do you want more tea?- she asked.
-Yes please. It's nice here, so calm. At my home there's always something going on, mainly because of Sasuke and Sasoru. Naruto reacted to that name straight away. Will it always be that way? Even if he was lost in his thoughts, hearing that name brings him back. He began listening at the right time, Hinata invited them over to her house on Saturday.
-Mom would be happy to have guests. She leads an open house, so many people come and go.
-I would love to, but tomorrow evening I'm gone for delegation. I will be back on Sunday, but Naruto would gladly come, right?
-What? Me? I have no intention of going there. Yes, thank you for the invitation.-he smiled slightly.
-I'm glad.
He wanted to die. He agreed, agreed. His stupid lips were meant to say something else. Maybe he will manage to get away. He can say that he feels unwell, and he won't come. No, he can't do that. His mother and brother will be worried. Whatever, if till then the world won't end then he can go. He can check if Sasuke is so cruel at his own house too.
Hinata turned out to be a nice girl. Family is very important to her. My mother came to like her a lot. Naruto liked her too, and he even started a conversation with her about favourite comedies.
At 9 pm Gaara gave her a lift home, and Naruto helped his mom wash the dishes.
-Beautiful girl, right?- his mom broke the silence. She passed him a cleaned plate to dry.
-She's pretty.
-I wonder when you will find someone. You can't be alone all the time. At your school there's surely a lot of girls, who are interested in you.
-I want to focus on studying. I'm not interested in dating.- he didn't look her in the eyes.
-Studying won't run away, and you won't be young forever. I think that you should meet up with one. My friend has a daughter...
-Why are you so persistent?!- he suddenly raised his voice.
-Don't talk to me that way!
-I'm sorry. For now I rather be alone.
-I understand, that...
-No mom you don't understand, I'm not ready to explain it to you. Can I go to my room?
-Go. Don't forget to pack your stuff to school.
He closed the doors and he jumped on his bed, while getting a book on his way. He forced himself to read one chapter, but he was so irritated that he couldn't focus. He put the book away, and he turned on his stomach, while putting his hands under the chin.
-She thinks that I wouldn't want to meet with anyone. It's the opposite, I feel bad alone. Especially when I see that people have someone. How can I tell her that I prefer boys? How can I tell anyone. Only Sasuke knows...I think, unless he was just blabbering. The fact is though that I told him, I didn't deny that I like men. Oh God.- he turned around on his back and he covered his face with his hands.- He won' let me live tomorrow.
***
Tomorrow came fast, but what Uzumaki has been worried about didn't happen. Sasuke was avoiding him, however he could feel him looking at him. Naruto didn't know what's better, being treated like a boy for making jokes, or be ignored. He caught himself on the fact that he preferred the first option. At least he knew what to expect, and what Uchiha was planning. He wanted to get home, but lessons dragged forever . Finally after eight hours he left school. The sun shone outside, even so it was cold. The walk to the bus stop was awaiting him. Only after getting fully recovered, he could get a driving licence.
He stopped once he saw the famous trio. This time he wouldn't let them off. He put his head high and he walked passed them.
-Ey, Uzumaki.- hearing Sasuke's voice after few days have passed, made him shiver. He wasn't sure though if it was from fear or pleasure.
-What do you want?
Haku walked up to him.
-How are you feeling?
-Ee...
-Very intelligent response.- Sasuke gave him an evil look.
-Good, but not thanks to you.
-What was that, that you fell like dead?- Kiba laughed.
-Your friend led to that, didn't he tell you about it? Too bad that you weren't there, you would enjoy watching that drama scene.- he said to Inuzuka. He didn't know why but he preferred Sasuke over that asshole, who liked playing on his cost.- You like such scenes right Kiba? You like laughing at humiliated people. Uchiha provides you entertainment, huh? Tell me are you having fun?
-I'm bored. It could be better.
-Sure. If I died you would have great fun with him.- he pointed at Sasuke.- Don't count on it. I have a bus soon, so I must go, but first I will tell you that we will see each other tomorrow at evening for supper, Sasuke.
-What supper?
-Oh you don't know anything? Your sister is dating my brother, and we have been invited over to your house. See you at 6 pm.
Sasuke grabbed his wrist, when the boy wanted to leave.
-Bullshit!
-Ask your sister Hinata.
-Lies.- he mumbled.
-You will find out...
Sasuke grabbed his arms and he put his face closer to his. They almost touched each other's noses. Uzumaki's heart pounded like crazy. He was surprised that it wasn't from fear. His face was so close, his eyes were looking angrily, and at the same time they were lost. His warm breath with a smell of mint, made him scared of his own feelings. He saw Uchiha looking at his lips, and then at his eyes again.
-Get lost blondie!- he hissed. He pushed him away and he walked away, while combing his hair with his fingers. Kiba ran after him.
-Are you feeling well?- asked Haku.
-Why do you keep asking that?
-You look as if you got a fever.
-I'm fine. It's nice of you for asking.Your friend looks as if he is too hype. He should take medication for relieving stress, instead of exploding on me.
-He is pretty nervous, lately a lot. When I ask him what's wrong he won't tell me.
-Thank you for your concern, but I must go. Think some things through, otherwise I will go crazy.- he added in his thoughts.
-Are you really coming over to us for a supper?
-I don't know any more if I will. You know.- he looked at him.-You are a nice person.
-I can be mean.
-Like everyone, but from the trio, without looking at our first encounters, you turned out to be the most nice. He walked to to the bus stop with many confusing feelings. He saw those pretty eyes in his mind. Damn no,no.no, it's not like that! Those eyes are ugly. And their owner is disgusting...he's great, even with that horrible personality.
-Darn it!- that was his reaction when he missed the bus, and towards his unknown feelings. As if it wasn't enough it began to rain. Fate keeps putting more burdens along the way, but everyone needs to suffer, in order to know happiness. He began walking home, what would take roughly twenty minutes.
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