I looked around the corridor.- few people stopped by to watch this scene. Kiba stood with his mouth opened while looking at me then at Shikamaru, Sakura stood next to us with a worried expression, Naruto stood by the wall, while Neji and Hina-
NARUTO IS STANDING BY THE WALL?!
I looked at him with terrified eyes.
He also looked at me but with questioning expression.
I put Shikamaru back on the ground.
Without saying anything I grabbed my bag, and embarrassed by this situation. I lowered my head and I ran upstairs without saying anything.
***
I hid in chemistry classroom.
It's quiet here. At this time on Monday there's no lessons upstairs.
Fifteen minutes ago I only heard a cleaning lady sweeping the floor, on a corridor.
Behind the window, the sun shone brightly, while wind was blowing from time to time, and it made Sakura petals fly in the air. The window was opened, thanks to that some of the petals entered the room and they landed on a floor, not far from me. They were light pink, and delicate.
I sat in front of the blackboard.
I was hugging my ankles, while leaning my chin on my knees.
I tried to focus on a green cabinet in front of me. Kurenai-sensei was keeping there some chemicals and tubes which were used for experiments during lessons.
Not far from me there was some plant in a vase, it looked a bit like a palm.
Whole class was kept in green colours.- Kurenai-sensei really loves that colour. Walls, roller-blind, posters everything was green. The only thing that was ruining this atmosphere, was a red leaflet made by the class keeper.
I don't know what time it is, but I surely missed English lesson.
I clenched my hands.
What am I doing?!
First I'm jumping on Shikamaru, because of the way he called Naruto, but after seeing Naruto I ran off without any explanation?!
Why?
Why does it happen to me?!
Why did I fall in lo-
What am I feeling anyway...towards Naruto?
Am I in love with him?
No...that's...impossible...
Maybe he...captivated me?
I turned my head towards the window. Some strands of hair covered my eyes. I didn't feel like moving them aside.
One Sakura petal entered the room and it landed on my nose.
I blew on it. It fell on a floor.
Yes, I think that it could be it. Naruto captivated me. It's only capti-NO!
I hid my face in my hands.
What am I saying?! "Naruto captivated me"?!
Me-Sasuke- captivated by Naruto?
Me- A man- captivated by another man?!
I'm sick...I should see a doctor!
I'm gay! NO! I'm not...I don't want to be!
My parents will kill me..Wait a moment. Since when do I care about what will my parents think of me?! But Kiba, Hinata...even if they are my friends, I can't expect them to accept me. They are homophobes for sure...No, Hinata maybe not , she would try to accept it from pure kindness, but Kiba surely not.
He wouldn't admit that he knows me.
But...I'm a homophobe!
I grabbed my head.
Damn, what the fuck am I doing...
It shouldn't take place!
I have to finish university, find a wife, have two children with her, then I have to become a granfather and have grandchildren.
I have to?
Why am I tricking myself? It's my parent's plan, not mine.
I don't want to finish university.
I don't want a wife.
I don't want children either!
But...I won't be with Naruto anyway. He has only one thing on his mind - Sakura.
He's not close to being...gay, a fag.
He's handsome, friendly, he always smiles. Stylish, funny, cool.
Popular, desired by opposite gender - Ideal material for a boyfriend of some cheerleader.
He's crazy in love...but not with me.
Why can't he be mine? Why can't I be his? Why?!
Why can't I be the first person that he sees in the morning, and the last one that he sees at night?
Why can't he be the one to hug me, when I'm sad? Why can't I be the one who he would kiss when he would feel like it?
Why can't he share his life with me?
So what, if I have balls...?!
...I can't believe in what I'm saying.
-O, you hid here! I began thinking that, aliens kidnapped you.- said happily Kiba while entering the class, and closing the doors behind him.
I only gave him a short smile ,and I leaned my chin on knees again.
He only looked at me and smiled.
He walked up to me and sat beside me.
-Oi Sasu, Sasu...- he sighed and leaned his back against the wall.
-Why aren't you in a lesson?- I asked.
-Kakashi saw everything.
I lifted my head and I looked at him terrified. Kiba just sighed and he was staring at his shoes.
I lowered my head. Clenched my fists.
I bet he will give me a "lecture" about my behaviour...great.
-He stated that you acted under emotions.- moving out, new school, new town and so on. He told me to search for you and then "take you somewhere" so yo could cool down. He excused us from the lessons. I looked at him surprised.
-Seriously?- I asked.
-Yes. Oi Sasuke...you are only causing trouble.- he sighed, and he put his hands behind his head. He looked at me and he started laughing.
-What are you laughing at?- I asked.
-Nothing.- he replied with a smile.- what would you say about going to a party, huh? Girls, loud music, karaoke, alcohol...you could relax.- he asked.
-I will consider that proposition.- I replied with an interested tone.
After a moment of silence we both burst out laughing.
-Then what? Milk? It's my treat.- he suggested.
I looked away.
-Come on whiner, I have no intention to sit here till we fucking die. By the way I told our friends, and we all decided that I will take you there first. While they will join us after school.
-"our friends" Who exactly?
-Oh jeez...-he sighed while rolling his eyes. Sai, Neji, Ino, Tayu.- He was counting each name on his fingers, while jumping from one leg to another at the same time. He made me laugh with that view.- Yea...just them. Then are you picking up your flat ass, or do you want me to kick you first?- he said while leaning on the counter-top, and he exposed his hips.
-Yes I know that you like my hips.- he said with a smile, while touching his leg to show how "hot" he is, and I laughed out loud.- OK, the pleasure can wait, let's go for now. It's my treat so you better use this chance, because it might not repeat.- he said while pointing his finger at me.
I smiled and I nodded.
I stood up and we went towards the exit together.
Kiba is a kind of guy who will always cheer me up.
No matter how depressed I get, he will always take me out from it, by his smile and funny texts.
-Kiba?- I said, when we were about to leave the school.
-Hmm?- he said while walking in front of me.
-Thank you, for being here.
Kiba without stopping, he pulled me to himself, while locking his arm on my neck, he messed my hair.
-Oi Sasu, Sasu...- he sighed, when he let me go.
****
-Get off me! - I shouted when Kiba sat on my knees.
-Eyyyy, I know that you want my hips, right?- he laughed, while moving his ass around on my knees.
-Are you trying to make me horny?- I asked in a sarcastic way.
-It's already up.-he laughed and he kept moving on my legs.
-I love listening to you playing around.- we heard Neji's voice. We turned our heads in left direction -the rest of the group was on their way too.
-Neji, tell me that I got beautiful hips!- shouted Kiba while running up to him with puppy eyes.
Neji only looked at him confused.
-You got no hips.
-I don't? Then what's that?-he asked while moving his ass in circles. Tayuya, who just sat next to me, after seeing that she almost fell from the bench.
-A woman can have hips, and you better stop shaking that flat body because you might break it.- said Neji while sticking his tongue out.
Whenever we come here together by this shop. Kiba is provoking someone, to do a "teasing fight". Of course not to explode on someone, only to create a funny atmosphere.
Kiba looked at Neji while lifting his chin up.
-Flat body, huh? You got some complexes mr Gioconda?- he asked with a smirk while crossing his arms on his chest. Neji after hearing the word "Gioconda" stiffened.
Even if we know each other so short, I know that some people in grade school were calling Neji that way. Of course he hated that. Later everyone stopped, but when Kiba heard that word, he liked it so much that he tries to use it.
Kiba must be like an only person, who Neji doesn't jumps on every time he says that word.
Everyone that knows Kiba , is aware of the fact that when Kiba is stubborn about something, then he won't stop...
***
Our today's meeting ended without victims, apart from the fact that when Temari was laughing, she pushed a bike stand on which Sai, Shino and Hinata were leaning on, it made all of them fall over together with the bikes. Choji and Ino got so scared that they landed next to them. Me, Tayuya, Kiba and Neji after seeing them on the ground we lay on it too. In the end all of us sat on the ground in a vertical row, while leaning against the shop's wall and laughing at ourselves. Mrs Otsune after seeing us only shook head with a smile, and she was bringing us more milk every now and then.- interestingly when we went to pay for all the milk cartons, we drank like over 30, she said since we haven't been here for a while it's on her. When we began to protest , she chased us away with a stick of the broom, and she demanded us to show up together tomorrow. We went to some bar on our way, and the next three hours were spend on eating tempura and laughing.
Our way back home was also spent in a nice atmosphere. To be precise - Ino was hugging Kiba. Imagine his face expression! Closeness of Ino worked on him like a hot shower...no! Even like a very hot shower.
All of us stated in agreement, that a view of Ino and Kiba together is just sweet.
I walked Kiba home , and I was on my way to my own house.
I was a bit scared of my parent's reaction, because it's like 10 pm, and I haven't even sent one SMS within this time, telling them where am I, since lessons ended at 2 pm.
Tomorrow is Wednesday...
Only 5 days left till the trip. Tomorrow after school together with Sai and Tayuya we are meant to buy some provisions. Tayu also said that she wants to buy some bag on the wheels. It's possible that Neji might come with us, if his father won't be on period. Kiba unfortunately can't go with us. He has stay for an extra biology lesson to pass something. Poor Kiba.
I was about to cross the street, when I suddenly heard a sound of a motorbike.
When I was turning my head around, to check the source of the sound, I was blinded by a light of reflectors.
I froze in place.
In last moment I jumped back, and the driver turned right, thanks to that he avoided me. The pressure of the air created by the motorbike almost made me fall over.
In last moment we exchanged looks. On his helmet I could see a reflection of the street lamps and my own reflection. But that wasn't important - It was important who's eyes I saw under the helmet.
Under the helmet I saw Naruto's eyes.
I turned in his direction.
Is he crazy?
I was observing the motorcycle, till it disappear after turning right.
He seemed annoyed...but it's not an excuse! Does he even seen the speed limit?! I don't know what idiot gave him a driving license,despite that I'm interested in what happened to him...
After a while I got in front of my house.
I took the keys out of my pocket.
I won't knock- lights are off, maybe they are asleep and I will somehow manage to "sneak" upstairs. I inserted the key, when suddenly the bushes on my left side moved. Terrified I jumped away from the doors.
Parents?!
I started to nervously look around, but I didn't see anyone.
I just shook my head with a smile.
I'm going insane...
I opened the doors with the key.
I was about to come inside, when suddenly "something" moved the bushes again.
I tried to focus to see what it was, I couldn't see too well in the darkness.Something stood under one of the bushes.
Cardboard?
I closed the doors and I walked up to the bushes. I kneeled down and I lifted up the towel which was covering a medium sized cardboard box. My eyes gotten wider.
-Oh my fucking God...
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