Life is painful - Chapter 22

Cardboard?

I closed the doors and I walked up to the bushes. I kneeled down and I lifted up the towel which was covering a medium sized cardboard box. My eyes gotten wider.

-Oh my fucking God...

Inside the cardboard there was little puppy covered in blood. He was very skinny ,and it seemed like something bad happened to his left eye.

When the doggy saw me, he attempted to stand up, and he was wagging his tail, but he didn't have enough strength and he fell down.

The first thing that came to my mind is that, I have to take him out of the cardboard and cover him.

I ran home and I took out a towel from a cabinet.

I ran outside and I pulled cardboard box to myself. I sat on the grass in front of the house and I reached for the dog.

If you will bite me then I will kill you.

When I wanted to move him on the towel, the dog began to whine from pain.

I put him back to the cardboard, so I wouldn't cause him more pain.

What now? I'm a jerk, but I wouldn't leave a little dog alone.

I looked at him from every direction, and I noticed that all the left side of his body seems badly hurt. His back paw looked as if it was barely hanging on one bone.

It seems like he was hit by a car...

OK- I won't move him, but I have to do something.

A vet?

Yea darn, where will I get a vet from at 10 pm...KIBA!

I covered the dog with a towel, which I have brought, I took the cardboard in my hands, and I began to carry him towards Kiba's home.

***

I knocked on the doors. Kiba opened the doors with towel on his head. Water was dripping from his hair.

-Jeeeeez, I'm here. It's you! What's that?- he asked while pointing at the cardboard with his toothbrush.

-You have to help me.- I said while breathing hard from running, I uncovered the dog.

Kiba's eyes gotten wider.

-Where did you get him from?- he asked and he took the cardboard box from me, while letting me in.

-He was lying in front on my house. There's something wrong with his eye and his paw, I don't know what but it hurts him.- I said.

Kiba sat on a carpet in a living room and he told me to turn on the lights.

He put some towel on the ground, and he carefully took out the puppy.

-Ouch...- hissed Kiba.

-What? What's wrong with him?- I asked while kneeling down.

-Seems like he was hit by a car. His left paw is so crushed, that it would be better to amputate it. The front paw is not that bad, but not well either. I don't know about the collarbone...- he said, while touching the dog's ribs- His ribs are broken. I don't think left eye can be saved, The most important thing is that he can breathe.- he said while looking at the dog.

When I heard that I was impressed by Kiba. I could tell that he comes from a family where ,everyone becomes a vet from generation to generation.

At the same time I felt sorry for the puppy.

-What should we do then?- I asked, while petting the dog's head with my finger.

-I will call my sister.- he said while putting the dog in my hands. He stood up and he reached for the phone.

-Leave her alone, at this hour?

-She's on her work shift, I will tell her to come and get him.

-What if she disagrees?

-She has to. If she won't, the dog won't survive till the morning.- he said and he pressed his phone against the ear. I looked at the dog, who was lying by my chest. He trembled slightly.

I had no idea what race is he. I couldn't see his fur entirely too, since it was covered in blood, but he seemed mostly black.

I looked at Kiba who was in the middle of a conversation.-his white shirt was covered in blood now. Mine too but not as much as his.

Suddenly I felt someone breathing on my shoulder. I turned my head left, and I almost got a heart attack- next to me stood a big, white wolf and he looked at the puppy as if he wanted to eat him.

I automatically stood up from the ground, and I moved away from that animal.

-Don't be scared.- said Kiba while covering the phone with his hand.- He won't do anything to you.

-What is that?- I said with half whisper, to not disturb him, from his conversation.

-Not what, it's who.- Akamaru. My dog.-he said quickly and he began talking again.

I looked at that pet.

At a first glance he didn't look like a dog, More like a huge white wolf with brown ears and brown nose. The fur on his head was standing.

The dog walked up to me, he sniffed my legs and then the puppy, which I had in my hands. I was hesitating whether to sit down on the ground again, or keep standing, because he was looking at me strangely, but I trusted Kiba and I kneeled down.

Akamaru walked around me,till he finally lay next to me, while putting his head on my leg.

In this position, he looked less scary.

-OK, she will be here soon.- said Kiba while sitting next to me, and petting Akamaru.

-You never said, that you got a dog.- I said, when Kiba took the puppy away from me and put him inside the cardboard on a fresh towel.

-No? Then you know now. Come on, pet him. He won't eat you.- said Kiba while grabbing my hand, and putting it on the dog's head. With a little fear I petted him. Akamaru didn't react.

-You see? He's not that scary. Are you going with us or are you going home?

-Go where?

-To a hospital.

-Can I?

-Why not?

-Because it's not my dog.

-He's not mine either. Let's go.

***

We are here for 2 hours, and nothing! I'm running from one end of a corridor to another for 2 hrs!

Kiba was nicely sitting in front of the surgery room. He didn't even flinch or looked at me. He was looking at the floor, and he was leaning his hands on his knees.

-Sit.- he finally said with a calm tone.

-How are you able to sit so calmly?

-They know what they are doing. So calm down.

-Easy to say.- I said and I sat next to him.

-Why are you so nervous? It's not your dog after all.

-I know, but I feel sorry for him, and I want to know what's going on. Did you see those sad eyes of his?

-Oi Sasuke, Sasuke...

A silence fell between us.

Some members of staff were passing by from time to time. They were busy with their stuff.

-Here you go, it's already Wednesday.- said Kiba after looking at his watch.

-Seriously?- I grabbed his hand, while looking at the time.- Damn, it's true...

-Go home, I will stay here.

-No.

-You won't get enough sleep.

-It's fine! I want to see the dog.

Suddenly the doors to the hall opened, and a long-haired brunette came out, she was wearing white apron.

I ran up to her straight away.

-And what?

Hana smiled.

-He's alive, don't worry.- she replied, and we felt a relief. Kiba walked up to us.

-Beside that?- he asked his sister with a serious face.

-We had to remove the left eye. Just how you said.- 2 ribs broken.We put a dog cone on him, and his left back paw is in gypsum. He has to stay here at least 2 weeks. He has to be under professional care.- she replied and Kiba only nodded,

-After that?- I asked.

-After that we have to find him a home. That might be a problem.- she said worried, while putting hands in her pockets.

-Why is that?- I asked.

-Now it's trendy to have a little beautiful dog with a ribbon.- said Kiba with annoyed voice.

-Additionally it's a rare race in Japan and not "interesting"...And after so many surgeries he will have a lot of  scars. Plus he has no eye...I also don't know how he will behave because he's in shock right now. Let's hope that he won't be aggressive, because if he will...we will have to euthanize him.

-I will take him.- I said.

They looked at me surprised.

-What about your parents?- asked Kiba

-I will talk to them.

-You still got time. I can only let him out after 2 weeks, so ask them.- she smiled.- And now both of you go home, you can come tomorrow to see him, today he is tired.- she said and she patted our heads. We said goodbye and we left the hospital. 

-Kiba?

-Hmm?

-What did your sister meant, when she said that it's a rare race in Japan and that no one is interested in it?

-Lately Japanese people prefer little dogs, that you can match to the colour of your clothes on a given day.- he said with a mocking tone.-and that race is too much "muscular and not nicely looking".

-What is that race anyway? - I asked.

-Ah sorry, I haven't told you yet - bull terrier.

-Aha.- I said, while trying to imagine grown up version of that race, but my attempts weren't too successful.

***

I couldn't sleep at night. I kept fidgeting from side to side. I have been wondering for whole night, how to convince my parents. I hope, that I can manage to...

Even if they won't I will still take him. I don't give a fuck about their opinion.

I changed lying position on bed, now my legs were on my pillow and head was on a blanket. I sighed.

Did I really get attached to that dog, so quickly?

I turned my body around - now I was facing the blanket. I put some little pillow under my chin. I was looking at a reflection of the moon, in a glass of water, which was on the ground. Around it was loads of paper scattered around, clothes, there were even keys to my old house, my phone, broken charger, some textbook and a bag by a wall.

I have a talent to make mess around me from birth. It will never change.

I lifted the mattress up, by pulling up the corner of it, in order to see what's under the bed.

I should tidy my room one day...- I thought to myself after seeing cigarette butts there , and some scrunched up papers.

***

At about 5 am I got up. CORRECTION - I'm up since yesterday. I didn't sleep at all, since 1 am till 5 am, I have walked like 6 times to get a coffee. Really BIG cup of coffee. If my heart won't stop before I'm 25 years old, it will be a miracle...

***

Kiba has been full of energy since the morning, what really irritated me. Today they are supposed to have first PE lesson outside, and he loves to play, run and be silly on a fresh air.

I don't exercise on PE lessons. I got myself one year excuse.

Reason?

I don't want to see the reaction of everyone around, after seeing my Frankenstein body.

-PE is soon! PE is soon! -Kiba was jumping around me.

-Silent son...I can barely walk...-I moaned, while walking behind him.

I already survived two lessons...on Japanese I leaned on Kiba's shoulder, and my most common answer to the teacher's questions was "No, no, I'm not sleeping..."

On chemistry, I was close to causing a "mini-fire" with acid and burner.

-No,no! Be more energetic, energetic!- he was running around me, like a dog, while clapping his hands.

-If not the fact that I'm barely alive, you would get fucked up.- I mumbled, and he just grinned.

We went downstairs to the male changing room. Half of the class was already there, and they weren't as happy as Kiba was. I'm not even surprised. PE with Gai-sensei...

Gai-sensei is...to put it lightly...a bit hot-headed. I feel like they sent him from another planet, where there's a group of metro-sexual fans of bleaching teeth and hair on their chest. 

But let's not judge a book by it's cover - the important fact is, that we know that he can make everyone laugh, and that he can take jokes.

I heard that he is friend's with Kakashi since childhood.

Kiba started changing, as for me I felt even more dizzy from not sleeping.
-Kibaaa...fag, I want to sleep...-I mumbled, while putting my face on his chest.
I suddenly smelled a familiar smell, but because of my condition, I couldn't recognize it. His body was so warm...and so...nice?
Suddenly I felt Kiba petting my head.
I began purring like a kitten and I hugged his waist, and I pulled him closer to myself.
His skin was very soft, and the hand which he was touching my cheek with, was so surprisingly delicate.
-Kiba...are you creaming your hands?- I asked with a sleepy voice.
-Me?- he asked stupidly.- Not more than usually.-he said.
-I'm not creaming my hands, but thanks for the compliment.- I heard a voice of a giggling Naruto...

WAIT A MOMENT.

 I opened my eyes. Kiba  stood next to me, while looking at me as if I'm an idiot. He was holding his shirt in his hands.

If Kiba is standing next to me, that must mean that I'm hugging...

I slowly lifted my head up.When I saw a blue necklace, hanging while touching his tanned chest. My throat got dry. I looked up and I saw Naruto's eyes full of joy.

The boy smiled at me, while still petting my head and hugging me.

OH...GOD.

I jumped back away from him as if I got burned.
All my sleepiness went away - It was more effective than all the coffees, that I have drank in my entire life all together.

-What happened?- asked Naruto.
Unfortunately his words didn't reach me. I stood about 2 metres away from him, while looking at his body. My eyes were checking out his chest and his uncovered shoulders. I began from neck going down and down, I stopped on the line of his trousers, which matched perfectly his ass and thighs...
I was imagining myself walking up to him, and pulling off his jeans, from his perfect legs...
-Ey! Junkie! Wake up! - Kiba poked me. I looked at him surprised. Then I looked at Naruto.
-But how, how did you...Kiba stood there!
-I'm standing here the whole time. You better give up on masturbating for whole night. - "Advised" me Kiba.
Naruto looked at me surprised. Then he covered his mouth with his hand, to hide the grin on his face.
I looked at him and I became red.

Kiba! Fuck, you're dead!

-But-but-but- It's not true! - I protested. Kiba only smiled. When my face went back to normal "colour" I looked at Naruto.
-I'm sorry...- I lowered my head, from embarrassment.
-No, I'm sorry.- he said and he became sad. I looked up and I looked at him confused.
-You? Why? - I asked
Naruto walked up to me with a sad expression. He tried to hug me, but when he tried to reach for me with his hands, I pushed them away. Naruto looked at me terrified, then he became sad again.
-For yesterday...evening. I almost hit you with my motorbike.
-Ah...that...forget about it.- I said quickly, after I saw his face expression.
-But me - -he began while trying to hug me again, I jumped back, while grabbing his hand.
-Forget about it.- I said and I smiled gently. I let go off him, with my trembling hand. Naruto strangely looked at me.
-OK youngsters!  Are you ready for work out?! - we heard optimistic voice of Gai-sensei.
-Yes! - shouted Kiba optimistically.
-Ooo yes! I love energy of the youngsters! Let's go! - he said happily and gave a sign for students to fallow him. - We will play...football!- said sensei to the students.
-Then...have a nice match.- I said to Naruto and I walked away from him.

***

-One and two! One and two! - counted sensei, when boys did push-ups.
I looked at them with an opened mouth - to be specific I looked at Kiba, who did push-ups like crazy.

Jeez...Kiba must be on some doping...


.-And one and two, and one and two! Yesss, great! Now squats and we can play! - said sensei, while running off the pitch. He came up to me.
-Sasuke dear, can you go and get a ball? I forgot, that Tsunade told to move them to school building.- he said with an innocent face.
-Yes, I can go.- I said.
-OK, here are the keys.- he said and he gave me the keys.- Thank you honey! - he said while running towards the boys, and waving at me.
I walked towards the school building.

"Dear"? "Honey"? It was a bit...scary.

I walked towards the storage. I opened the doors. Inside it was so dark, that I couldn't see anything. I wanted to light the storage, but I couldn't find the switch, so I left the doors opened, so I could have a bit of light from the outside. I began to look around.
At the shelf on the top, I noticed two balls for football. I tried to reach for one, but it turned out that I'm too short. I stood on a bottom shelf. I touched the ball with my fingertips.
-O, watch out! - I heard a voice behind my back.
I turned around and I saw a boy slightly taller than me, he had very silky black hair. I saw that he reached with one hand above my head.- If it hit you, it wouldn't be nice.- he laughed.
I just noticed that with one hand I was touching a trophy.
-Yay...thanks. I can't see anything in the dark.- I laughed.
-Hahaha, you're not the only one. Good that I was passing by. You are the new guy...Sasuke, right? - he asked with a smile.
-Yes. Sasuke.- I said and we shook hands.
-Lee.
-Lee? Rock Lee? You are in my class...why I haven't seen you before?
-I'm practically absent during lessons. I'm helping in organizing Sport Saturday.- he said with a smile.
-Sport Saturday?- I asked, and he gave me the ball.
-Yes, every year after baking day we are organizing Sport Saturday. It turned out like this, this year, that's why we have a lot of work now. You know - few matches , like for example between class 2 and 3, or 1 and 2 and other competitions. You know - for fun. If you want you can come to cheer for our team. We will compete against class 3D.- he said.
-Aha...well maybe I will attend, thanks for the invitation. OK, I'm going, because Gai-sensei is waiting for the ball. Then see you later.- I said. The boy waved at me.

***

PE lesson, English and maths passed rather calmly, not mentioning looking at the blue-eyed boy.
Why Kakashi had to sat me next to him?
After school I was meant to go with Tatuya and Sai for shopping but...we didn't feel like it. Poor Kiba stayed for extra Biology lesson.
We met for a milk of course. Neji was complaining about the situation at home...he said that his father wants to cut his enjoyments.  Enjoyments...as if Neji had any.
As for Sai he fell in love. We don't know in who, and how.- we only know that she is older than him... roughly 11 years older.
I wonder what will come out of it...

 This time I got home much more early than yesterday.

I came inside the house. On hallway I saw someone's shoes...surely not Itachi's. I can't imagine him in pink boots.
I took a glance inside the living room - A blonde girl was sitting on a sofa. I looked the other way - Itachi was in the kitchen.
-You're already home?
-It's already 5 pm. You didn't say that you will have guests. Then I'm going to-
-What are you saying, Sasu! Come here! - I heard a voice...of a...I'm sorry! Blonde guy!
-Deidera?- I asked unsure.
-Wooow, he remembers me! - he shouted happily, while jumping on a sofa like a little ball.- Come here, you will watch a movie with us.- he invited me.
-You know, it;s nice of you, but Itachi invited you, I would only disturb you. Overall I have to study and clean and-
-Bullshit! Your life will escape, you don't have to have only A's. Sit here.- he demanded. I looked at him and then at Itachi. Brother looked at me and then at Deidera.

I haven't got anything against the boy, but the atmosphere between me and Itachi was somehow...heavy. As if Itachi was scared...that I'm there too. As if I was a parent who caught his kid in bed with girlfriend. - and that kid would be Itachi. Usually I'm afraid of him, when he's near, and now somehow it's the...opposite?

-Emm...Deidera- stop pushing on him...- began Itachi who felt uneasy.
-Ey, I can spend time with two of my friends, right? Beside - how are you treating your younger brother?- Deidera said a bit frustrated.
Itachi wasn't too happy about that, but he told me to sit next to Deidera.
-Do you like horrors?- asked Deidera.
-Yea...more or less.
-That's good then. Itachi-kun let's play the movie that Max has lend me, OK?
-Of course.- Itachi replied kindly.

Of course? No protesting? Is that really my brother?

-Ah! And bring us the 4 beers from the fridge that I brought. And ashtray! - said Deidera loudly.
Disoriented I looked at Itachi, who walked towards us with BEER AND CIGARETTES.

Itachi and...beer? Cigarettes? What the fuck is going on?

-Do you smoke? - asked Deidera with a cigarette in his mouth, while pointing at me a package with cigarettes.
-Emm..me...- I began a little confused.
-Come on take it, I won't give you shit about it.
-But Itachi doesn't like-
-But he doesn't like anything! - he moaned - World doesn't turn around him. Take it.- he said and he put a cigarette in my hand.
I looked at the cigarette and then at Itachi, while having no idea what's going on.
Itachi sat next to me and he took a lighter from his pocket. He looked at me with a stupid expression.
-Don't tell me ,that you don't know where to insert a cigarette?  - he asked and my eyes gotten wider.

Why didn't he scold me for...anything? That I'm here, that I'm alive?

I inserted a cigarette in my mouth without complaining, while observing Itachi's reaction. And he just lit up my cigarette.
-Thanks...- I said and he smiled.

HE SMILED?!

Itachi reached for a can of beer. He opened it and he took a sip.
I couldn't hold it any more I got off the sofa and I stood up.
-Ey darn, what's going on here?! - I shouted completely shocked.
The boys looked at me as if I'm crazy.
-What's...what's the problem? - asked me Deidera who didn't understand why I reacted that way.
-Everything! Itachi let you smoke inside the house. He had a lighter in his pocket! And he drinks beer! - I shouted and I pointed at Itachi, who froze with his lips on beer.
-But he is 21 years old.- said Deidera.
-Exactly! For entire 16 years of my life, I never saw him with a beer, a cigarette...even with a chocolate!
-What about that?- asked my brother.
My arms became numb.
-Then what, should I jump on him? - he asked.
-Don't annoy me!
Itachi sighed. He opened his lips, to say something but I carried on my speech.
-Beer, Cigarettes. You vanish from home and come back late. And you have a girlfriend!- I said.
-You got a girlfriend? - asked Deidera.
-No. How did it come in your mind?- asked surprised Itachi, while sipping a beer.
-What about that BABE or something like that on your phone? - I asked and Itachi choked on his beer. Deidera burst out laughing.
-Ohhh men...such a fun family!- he laughed,
-But Dei, heck! What did you do to my brother?! - I shouted resigned.
-Listen Sasu-kun - I'm 21 years old. I'm an adult by law. I'm pretty old now and I have a right to try something..new?And about that chocolate - if you spent enough time with me then you would know - I'm addicted to a chocolate.- he explained with a calm voice.
-You won't be dad's pupil?- I asked.
-I think I will give up on that.- he laughed.
-But...it's not Itachi any more! - I moaned resigned, while looking at Deidera who kept laughing.
-Ey, don't be a pig, support your brother.- said Itachi - When you got drunk on new year 3 years ago, then who dragged you throughout Kyoto? - he said and I became red.
Deidera fell of the sofa from laughter.
-Ey, we don't talk about me right now.- I moaned.- Then there won't be dividing now? Itachi - good son, Sasuke - bad son.
-We will work on that.- said Itachi and he patted my head.
-Then during new year we will get Itachi drunk, and then we will drag him throughout Tokyo.- laughed Deidera.
-OK! - I said cheerfully and jumped on him.
-Haha, very funny.- said Itachi while pretending to be offended.- Do you remember what else you did during new year, little brother?
-W-what?- I asked while laughing, when Deidera started tickling me.
-You stopped being a virgin...-he said innocently and I got paralysed.
Deidera stopped tickling me , and he looked at me.
-Sasuke...you had your first time at an age of 13?- he asked me in a serious tone. I looked at both of them with red face,
-Ey, fuck off from me guys! - I said while attempting to stand up.
-Wooow, Sasuke - you rock.- said Deidera full of admiration.
-I know - I said proudly, and Itachi burst out laughing.- OK put on that fucking movie or I will insert it inside your ass.- I said embarrassed by Itachi's reaction and I walked up to the DVD.

***

During watching a movie,  I felt something vibrate in my pocket. I put Itachi's legs away from me and I pulled out the phone.

NEW MESSAGE FROM

Naru ;*

-Naru...is he pretty?- asked Deidera, while looking through my arm, with mouth full off popcorn.

I looked at him embarrassed. I became red.

-Deidera...- Itachi tried to calm him.

-What? Jeezz...are you on your period today? - said Dei, Itachi smiled to himself, without looking away from TV.- Is he pretty or not?- He asked again with a grin on his face,

Without saying anything I clicked OPEN.

I have to talk to you- Now. In a moment.

-Uuuuu...- said Deidera - Seems there is trouble - he said while putting popcorn in his mouth. 

I stood up from the sofa and I quietly went in front of the house.

I couldn't reply near them. I couldn't concentrate.

Talk...but about what?

A moment later phone began vibrating,

NEW MESSAGE FROM

Naru ;*

Open.

Can I call you?

I sat on a swing, which was on a terrace in front of the house. I looked at the phone's display, without knowing what to do.

Resigned I stretched on a swing. I looked up in the sky.

I'm afraid to talk to him. Without knowing what he wants from me...

And what now, Sasuke?

Suddenly my phone began vibrating. Terrified I got off the swing, and while standing I looked at the phone's display.

INCOMING CALL

Naru ;*

Should I pick up?

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Life is painful - Chapter 21

Suddenly it became quiet around us.

I looked around the corridor.- few people stopped by to watch this scene. Kiba stood with his mouth opened while looking at me then at Shikamaru, Sakura stood next to us with a worried expression, Naruto stood by the wall, while Neji and Hina-

NARUTO IS STANDING BY THE WALL?!

I looked at him with terrified eyes.
He also looked at me but with questioning expression.

I put Shikamaru back on the ground.
Without saying anything I grabbed my bag, and embarrassed by this situation. I lowered my head and I ran upstairs without saying anything.

***

I hid in chemistry classroom.
It's quiet here. At this time on Monday there's no lessons upstairs.
Fifteen minutes ago I only heard a cleaning lady sweeping the floor, on a corridor.
Behind the window, the sun shone brightly, while wind was blowing from time to time, and it made Sakura petals fly in the air. The window was opened, thanks to that some of the petals entered the room and they landed on a floor, not far from me. They were light pink, and delicate.

I sat in front of the blackboard.
I was hugging my ankles, while leaning my chin on my knees.
I tried to focus on a green cabinet in front of me. Kurenai-sensei was keeping there some chemicals and tubes which were used for experiments during lessons.

Not far from me there was some plant in a vase, it looked a bit like a palm.

Whole class was kept in green colours.- Kurenai-sensei really loves that colour. Walls, roller-blind, posters everything was green. The only thing that was ruining this atmosphere, was a red leaflet made by the class keeper.

I don't know what time it is, but I surely missed English lesson.

I clenched my hands.

What am I doing?!
First I'm jumping on Shikamaru, because of the way he called Naruto, but after seeing Naruto I ran off without any explanation?!
Why?
Why does it happen to me?!
Why did I fall in lo-

What am I feeling anyway...towards Naruto?
Am I in love with him?
No...that's...impossible...
Maybe he...captivated me?

I turned my head towards the window. Some strands of hair covered my eyes. I didn't feel like moving them aside.
One Sakura petal entered the room and it landed on my nose.
I blew on it. It fell on a floor.

Yes, I think that it could be it. Naruto captivated me. It's only capti-NO!

I hid my face in my hands.

What am I saying?! "Naruto captivated me"?!
Me-Sasuke- captivated by Naruto?
Me- A man- captivated by another man?!
I'm sick...I should see a doctor!
I'm gay! NO! I'm not...I don't want to be!

My parents will kill me..Wait a moment. Since when do I care about what will my parents think of me?! But Kiba, Hinata...even if they are my friends, I can't expect them to accept me. They are homophobes for sure...No, Hinata maybe not , she would try to accept it from pure kindness, but Kiba surely not.
He wouldn't admit that he knows me.

But...I'm a homophobe!

I grabbed my head.

Damn, what the fuck am I doing...
It shouldn't take place!
I have to finish university, find a wife, have two children with her, then I have to become a granfather and have grandchildren.

I have to?

Why am I tricking myself? It's my parent's plan, not mine.
I don't want to finish university.
I don't want a wife.
I don't want children either!

But...I won't be with Naruto anyway. He has only one thing on his mind - Sakura.
He's not close to being...gay, a fag.

He's handsome, friendly, he always smiles. Stylish, funny, cool.
Popular, desired by opposite gender - Ideal material for a boyfriend of some cheerleader. 
He's crazy in love...but not with me.
Why can't he be mine? Why can't I be his? Why?!
Why can't I be the first person that he sees in the morning, and the last one that he sees at night?
Why can't he be the one to hug me, when I'm sad? Why can't I be the one who he would kiss when he would feel like it?
Why can't he share his life with me?
So what, if I have balls...?!

...I can't believe in what I'm saying.

-O, you hid here! I began thinking that, aliens kidnapped you.- said happily Kiba while entering the class, and closing the doors behind him.
I only gave him a short smile ,and I leaned my chin on knees again.
He only looked at me and smiled.
He walked up to me and sat beside me.
-Oi Sasu, Sasu...- he sighed and leaned his back against the wall.
-Why aren't you in a lesson?- I asked.
-Kakashi saw everything.
I lifted my head and I looked at him terrified. Kiba just sighed and he was staring at his shoes.
I lowered my head. Clenched my fists.

I bet he will give me a "lecture" about my behaviour...great.

-He stated that you acted under emotions.- moving out, new school, new town and so on. He told me to search for you and then "take you somewhere" so yo could cool down. He excused us from the lessons. I looked at him surprised.
-Seriously?- I asked.
-Yes. Oi Sasuke...you are only causing trouble.- he sighed, and he put his hands behind his head. He looked at me and he started laughing.
-What are you laughing at?- I asked.
-Nothing.- he replied with a smile.- what would you say about going to a party, huh? Girls, loud music, karaoke, alcohol...you could relax.- he asked.
-I will consider that proposition.- I replied with an interested tone.
After a moment of silence we both burst out laughing.
-Then what? Milk? It's my treat.- he suggested.
I looked away.
-Come on whiner, I have no intention to sit here till we fucking die. By the way I told our friends, and we all decided that I will take you there first. While they will join us after school.
-"our friends" Who exactly?
-Oh jeez...-he sighed while rolling his eyes. Sai, Neji, Ino, Tayu.- He was counting each name on his fingers, while jumping from one leg to another at the same time. He made me laugh with that view.- Yea...just them. Then are you picking up your flat ass, or do you want me to kick you first?- he said while leaning on the counter-top, and he exposed his hips.
-Yes I know that you like my hips.- he said with a smile, while touching his leg to show how "hot" he is, and I laughed out loud.- OK, the pleasure can wait, let's go for now. It's my treat so you better use this chance, because it might not repeat.- he said while pointing his finger at me.
I smiled and I nodded.
I stood up and we went towards the exit together.

Kiba is a kind of guy who will always cheer me up.
No matter how depressed I get, he will always take me out from it, by his smile and funny texts.

-Kiba?- I said, when we were about to leave the school.
-Hmm?- he said while walking in front of me.
-Thank you, for being here.
Kiba without stopping, he pulled me to himself, while locking his arm on my neck, he messed my hair.
-Oi Sasu, Sasu...- he sighed, when he let me go.

****
-Get off me! - I shouted when Kiba sat on my knees.
-Eyyyy, I know that you want my hips, right?- he laughed, while moving his ass around on my knees.
-Are you trying to make me horny?- I asked in a sarcastic way.
-It's already up.-he laughed and he kept moving on my legs.
-I love listening to you playing around.- we heard Neji's voice. We turned our heads in left direction -the rest of the group was on their way too.
-Neji, tell me that I got beautiful hips!- shouted Kiba while running up to him with puppy eyes.
Neji only looked at him confused.
-You got no hips.
-I don't? Then what's that?-he asked while moving his ass in circles. Tayuya, who just sat next to me, after seeing that she almost fell from the bench.
-A woman can have hips, and you better stop shaking that flat body because you might break it.- said Neji while sticking his tongue out.

Whenever we come here together by this shop. Kiba is provoking someone, to do a "teasing fight". Of course not to explode on someone, only to create a funny atmosphere.

Kiba looked at Neji while lifting his chin up.
-Flat body, huh? You got some complexes mr Gioconda?- he asked with a smirk while crossing his arms on his chest. Neji after hearing the word "Gioconda" stiffened.

Even if we know each other so short, I know that some people in grade school were calling Neji that way. Of course he hated that. Later everyone stopped, but when Kiba heard that word, he liked it so much that he tries to use it.
Kiba must be like an only person, who Neji doesn't jumps on every time he says that word.
Everyone that knows Kiba , is aware of the fact that when Kiba is stubborn about something, then he won't stop...

***

Our today's meeting ended without victims, apart from the fact that when Temari was laughing, she pushed a bike stand on which Sai, Shino and Hinata were leaning on, it made all of them fall over together with the bikes. Choji and Ino got so scared that they landed next to them. Me, Tayuya, Kiba and Neji after seeing them on the ground we lay on it too. In the end all of us sat on the ground in a vertical row, while leaning against the shop's wall and laughing at ourselves. Mrs Otsune after seeing us only shook head with a smile, and she was bringing us more milk every now and then.- interestingly when we went to pay for all the milk cartons, we drank like over 30, she said since we haven't been here for a while it's on her. When we began to protest , she chased us away with a stick of the broom, and she demanded us to show up together tomorrow. We went to some bar on our way, and the next three hours were spend on eating tempura and laughing.
Our way back home was also spent in a nice atmosphere. To be precise - Ino was hugging Kiba. Imagine his face expression! Closeness of Ino worked on him like a hot shower...no!  Even like a very hot shower.
All of us stated in agreement, that a view of Ino and Kiba together is just sweet.

I walked Kiba home , and I was on my way to my own house.

I was a bit scared of my parent's reaction, because it's like 10 pm, and I haven't even sent one SMS within this time, telling them where am I, since lessons ended at 2 pm.
Tomorrow is Wednesday...
Only 5 days left till the trip. Tomorrow after school together with Sai and Tayuya we are meant to buy some provisions. Tayu also said that she wants to buy some bag on the wheels. It's possible that Neji might come with us, if his father won't be on period. Kiba unfortunately can't go with us. He has stay for an extra biology lesson to pass something. Poor Kiba.

I was about to cross the street, when I suddenly heard a sound of a motorbike.
When I was turning my head around, to check the source of the sound, I was blinded by a light of reflectors.
I froze in place.
In last moment I jumped back, and the driver turned right, thanks to that he avoided me. The pressure of the air created by the motorbike almost made me fall over.
In last moment we exchanged looks. On his helmet I could see a reflection of the street lamps and my own reflection. But that wasn't important - It was important who's eyes I saw under the helmet.
Under the helmet I saw Naruto's eyes.

I turned in his direction.

Is he crazy?

I was observing the motorcycle, till it disappear after turning right.

He seemed annoyed...but it's not an excuse! Does he even seen the speed limit?! I don't know what idiot gave him a driving license,despite that I'm interested in what happened to him...

After a while I got in front of my house.
I took the keys out of my pocket.
I won't knock- lights are off, maybe they are asleep and I will somehow manage to "sneak" upstairs. I inserted the key, when suddenly the bushes on my left side moved. Terrified I jumped away from the doors.

Parents?!

I started to nervously look around, but I didn't see anyone.
I just shook my head with a smile.

I'm going insane...

I opened the doors with the key.
I was about to come inside, when suddenly "something" moved the bushes again.
I tried to focus to see what it was, I couldn't see too well in the darkness.Something stood under one of the bushes.

Cardboard?

I closed the doors and I walked up to the bushes. I kneeled down and I lifted up the towel which was covering a medium sized cardboard box. My eyes gotten wider.

-Oh my fucking God...

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Life is painful- Chapter 20

-Naruto! - I yelled
I ran in his direction.

At that moment I didn't think about anything. I cared the most about saving Uzumaki.
It was a moment, a matter of seconds, many scenarios ran through my head.
I ran blindly, as fact as I could. So I could find myself next to him, as soon as possible. I would even cover him with my body, even if I had to take the impact of the hit ,from the truck on myself.

Faster.
I'm almost there.
Almost!

I reached out my hand in his direction, once I was in front of him.
I grabbed his shirt, there were only few centimetres between Naruto and the truck.
I swiftly pulled his shirt to myself. We both landed on a pavement.
I only felt a strong wind, when the truck passed next to us.

And what? Did I make it? - I asked myself in my mind, with my face facing the pavement.
After a moment, when I finally got out of shock, I lifted myself with my hands.
I was trying to calm my breath. I felt few of my hair strips being glued to my face.
I turned my head slowly to the right, with a hope that he's there.
Everything happened so fast, that I wasn't even sure if...I made it?
Is Naruto alive?
Or maybe he is lying dead ,few metres away?
First thing I saw were blonde hair.
I focused.
I heard him breathing - very heavily, while crepitating a bit.
He tried to lift himself up with one hand clumsily.
Why is he behaving so weird? Was he that afraid?
-Are you alive? - I asked while breathing heavily, but I didn't get an answer.
-Ey, don't be so moody at a time like this! - I shouted.
My mood from "before the accident" came back.
Now I felt like punching him.
-Man, I'm saving your ass, and you are asking yourself to get hit.- I groaned and I barely managed to walk up to him. I kneeled down.
His behaviour was odd - He trembled and he was squeezing his eyes from pain. But why? Nothing happened to him after all. Why is he pressing his hand against his chest?

I reached my hands towards him, so I could get hair away from his face. They were wet from...tears?
-Ey Na- - I didn't finish because Naruto fell on me with his entire body.
Now I was the one sitting on the pavement , and Naruto sat between my legs, while pressing his head against my chest. I looked at him from above - he squeezed his hands even tighter on his hoodie, in a spot where heart roughly is.
I got scared.
-Naruto, what happened to-
-It will stop soon.- he said with a quiet voice.
-What will stop?
-Nothing, it will stop soon.- he said while forcing a smile. While he was still clenching his fist on his hoodie.

I had no idea what's going on, what am I supposed to do, what to say.
I wasn't ready for such situation, when Naruto would lay in my arms on a pavement, while being barely alive, while I wouldn't even know what has happened to him.
He was pale, and his lips seemed purple. Even so he smiled at me widely.
-But Naruto what-
-Nothing, don't pay attention to this.- he interrupted me, while trying to get up, but he fell into my arms again.
At that moment I was more scared than he was.
I felt as if, all my organs were flipping over.
-DON'T PAY ATTENTION?! - I shouted.-Tell me what's going on!- I demanded.
-My heart hurts. BUT IT WILL STOP SOON.- he added, when I was about to open my lips.
-But...how? Why heart? Did you hit yourself? Did something sharp wounded you there? Wait, show me.- I began to panic like a little child.
-What am I supposed to show you? Sasuke, I got-
-No! Since it hurts, we have to call!- I said to myself, while putting Naruto's hands aside so I could see his chest, and find the "reason" for his pain.
-Call who? Sasuke, listen to me.
-No! We have to call...an ambulance! A hospital!
-Sasuke but listen to me - I got-
-No, you don't. I will make a call!
-SASUKE! - he yelled.

***

Narration - Naruto

-Naruto! - I heard Sasuke's voice.
I wanted to turn around in his direction, but when I was turning around, I saw some lights heading straight at me.
I became paralysed.

Is that a light, that a person sees before death?

Suddenly I felt something pulling me backwards, I only saw some dark hair in front of my eyes.
Everything happened so fast, that I even forgot about breathing.
After a moment I landed on a pavement.
When I wanted to check what's going on, I felt something that I didn't want to feel.
My heart.
Again.
As if someone was stabbing me with a cold blade, right in the middle of my heart, and he began to twist the blade around. Making it hard for me to breathe, and taking away all my senses.
I grabbed my hoodie, while pressing my hand against the chest, with a hope that it would make the pain more tolerable. It didn't work- The pain was getting worse.
I heard Sasuke speaking, but I couldn't reply - he would hear my voice breaking down, and he would notice tears flowing down from my eyes.
Besides...I got no strength to speak...
I wanted to lift myself up, but the pain attacked me with a double strength.
I landed on something more comfortable, than a pavement.
After a moment that thing, lifted me up and put me in a more comfortable position.
I realised, that it was Sasuke- I sniffed his skin which had slight orange smell.
I would recognize that smell at any time.
It's something shameful to admit, but sometimes during a lesson I get distracted. Then I slightly lean over in his direction...and I sniff him.

I have to calm down, otherwise  I will lose all the little respect that he has for me.
It must look pathetic though - I'm lying somewhere on a pavement with him, and like a little child I'm struggling from pain.
-Naruto, what happened to-
-It will stop soon.- I responded quickly.
-What will stop?
-Nothing, it will stop soon.- I said while forcing on a smile.
I was focused on trying to calm my breath, but the pain wouldn't go away.
I smiled widely, so that I could at least pretend that everything is OK.
Sai taught me that - smile is the best weapon in everything.

-But Naruto what-
-Nothing don't pay attention to this.- I interrupted him.
I tried to lift myself up with one hand, but I failed. I fell over on Sasuke.
-DON'T PAY ATTENTION?! Tell me what's going on! - he demanded. I looked at him.
-My heart hurts. BUT IT WILL STOP SOON - I spoke quickly, when he wanted to say something.
-But...how? Why heart? Did you hit yourself? Did something sharp wounded you there? Wait, show me.- he spoke quietly ,and he began to pull my hands away from my chest.
-What am I supped to show you? Sasuke I got-
-No, since it hurts, we have to call! - he said.
He behaved...weird. He trembled, he was waving with his hands and he kept saying something hard to understand. He looked like a crazy person, that ran away from a mental hospital.
-Call who? Sasuke, listen to me.- I tried to tell him, but he kept interrupting me.
-No! We have to call...an ambulance! A hospital!
-Sasuke but listen to me - I got -
-No, you don't. I will make a call! - he said and he was getting his phone out.
I got pissed off, I had to finish this drama scene.
-SASUKE! - I yelled. He looked at me.
-It's only a heart defect.- I said in a calmer tone, when the pain calmed down a bit.
The boy stopped moving, and he looked at me with terrified eyes.

I wanted somehow to "calm" the situaton, so I reached his face with my hands...when suddenly he threw himself on my neck and he hugged me tight.
I was in shock.

***

Narration - Sasuke

-SASUKE! - he yelled. My body got stiff and I looked at him.
-It's only a heart defect.- he said calmly.
My eyes opened wide.
Naruto looked at me confused.
I couldn't hold it in - I threw myself in his arms.

I was totally thrown off my balance.
I felt powerless ,and I felt tears in my eyes, but I managed to stop my tears from flowing down.
I hid my face on Naruto's shoulder, and I put my hands on his head.
It suddenly became quiet.

"It's only a heart defect" ...? "Only" ...?

After a moment I realised what I'm doing.
I jumped away from him. I stood up and without looking in his eyes I gave him my hand, to help him stand.
He didn't grab it. He barely managed to stand up alone.
-Only a heart defect, huh? - I asked him quietly.
-Yeah, but-
-Why didn't you tell me?- I groaned, while looking at him with angry eyes.
-Is it something to show off?! - he asked annoyed.
-No, fuck. I'm going crazy whenever I'm with you,- I hissed through my teeth, and with a poker face I began to walk towards the metro station.
After a moment Naruto caught up to me. For entire way we haven't talked to each other.

***

When we arrived at the station, it turned out that a next train is in about 20 minutes.
We came to conclusion, that we won't bear sitting with each other for the next 20 minutes in silence, so we began walking through an empty field.
We could see the highest buildings from the distance ,which were located in the centre, along the road there was nothing apart from pylons.
We walked on a left side of the road.- on my left side grew a long grass, while on the right some crops.
The asphalt wasn't even, it had some holes in it, but at the same time it was smooth. Perfect place to watch the sunset. Birds were chirping in the background.

Me, just like me, whenever I was stressed I smoked.
Naruto seemed irritated by it, because he kept grimacing.
-You didn't say, that you're smoking.- he spoke.
-And you didn't say, that you got a heart defect.- I said with irony.
-How is heart defect, related to smoking?- he asked.
I stood in front of him. His hair were being slightly blown by the wind.
-Firstly: We both hid something from each other - You your heart defect, me smoking.
Secondly: You can die from both things. - I "explained" and I took the cigarette in my mouth, I inhaled some smoke and I exhaled some in his face. He coughed.
I began walking.
-But you didn't take one thing under the consideration.- he began, after he stopped coughing.
-What? - I asked and I was inhaling the smoke.
-I don't harm anyone with my heart defect. While you harm people around you with smoking.- he said and he smiled with satisfaction.
I looked at him.
-Is that really what you think?- I asked calmly. He looked at me confused. The light from the sunset was reflecting in his eyes.
-Let's say, that you will die. Do you think, that you won't harm anyone? You're wrong. You will harm all the closest people to you - family, friends. Maybe you won't harm them physically, but you will harm them mentally. You don't even have to die to cause harm - such situation like the one that happened today, will harm your friends.- I said with a calm and quiet voice.
I didn't want to scare him, I only wanted him to understand.
Naruto looked at me with his big eyes, and he became sad.
The wind blew.
I walked forward while leaving him behind.
A moment later I heard his footsteps behind me. I turned around - he walked with his head lowered.

After about 10 minutes we finally began reaching our area.
The train began passing by. The train tracks were separating this field and our estate.
Kiba told me before, that if I turn right, in the direction in which the train just went, after 20 minutes I could reach the sea.
I have to go there one day.

I was standing in front of the barrier, waiting for all the train wagons to pass by.
After a moment Naruto, ended up next to me.
He still had his head lowered.
The train was gone. The barrier opened. We started walking.
We turned to the first alley on the right, and we ended up on our estate.
I never had a chance to go this way before, since whenever I go back with Kiba, we are taking the main road.

I was throwing away, my third empty package of cigarettes.
On our way home, we went to a small shop "owned by fatty" , which Kiba recommended to me. The shop had some: choco bars on a shelf, small fridge with drinks and a till with friendly fatty behind it. Next to it was a cigarette machine (Common in Japan). Some melancholic music was playing in the background from the radio, there were also bells above the doors. I walked up to him, without paying attention to a look full of suspicion of Mr. F.
The cigarette machine was in older version, for cash. I felt relieved.
-What can I get you? - asked the fatty, while putting away his newspaper. I looked at the machine.
-Red Marlboro, please.- I said. The fatty looked at me with his eyes that were sure that I'm under-age. Then he just sighed, and shook his head. He got his fat ass off the chair. he took his key and he opened the machine, - he laughed.
-Sorry , the machine is broken, I have to open it to give you the cigarettes.- he said while giggling.
-It's fine.- I said with a smile.
The man took out the cigarettes and he passed them to me.
I have to admit that I was slightly surprised, that he gave them to an under-aged person, without saying anything.
-Anything else?- he asked
I looked at Naruto, who stood in front of the shop, as if he was scared to come inside.
-Eyyy, Uzumaki, come here.- I said while laughing.
The boy looked at me scared, and then he came inside with a smile.
The fatty greeted him with an honest smile, and then he went back to reading his newspaper.
-What would you like?- I asked when we stood in front of the fridge with drinks.
-That thing, in an orange bottle.-he said while standing on his toes.
I reached for the upper shelf ,to help him get a drink which he tried to get.
-Green tea with peach. Is it good?- I asked while holding it in my hand.
-Yes, it's sweet. - he said and he smiled in a cute way.
His smile made me feel better.
-OK. Cigarretes and this tea.- I said to the seller, while waving with the bottle.
The fatty only nodded ,and he was pressing some buttons on the till.
-I will pay for myself.- mumbled Naruto and he took the bottle from my hands.
-No. I will pay for it, as an apology for making you inhale the smoke.- I said and I took the bottle back. Naruto only nodded.
-410 yens.- said the fatty. I paid him and we left.

-You're smoking like a dragon.- said grimaced Naruto, when I lit another cigarette.
-Thank you for a compliment.- I replied, without getting offended by that statement.
-It wasn't meant to be a compliment. It's unhealthy and it causes many deadly diseases.- said Naruto while waving his hand like a professional doctor.
-I will die anyway, so I rather die without crying in a pillow, that I couldn't do the things I like.- I said and I took the tea from his hands. I took a sip.- It really is sweet.
-Everyone will die, but from so many cigarettes you could die too early.- he carried on while taking the tea away from me.
-Then I will get myself killed earlier, and you won't have to fight with me over Sakura, she will be all yours.- I said.
-It's not about Sakura.
-Wow, really?- I laughed.
-Really.
-Then what is it about?- I asked.
-It's about you.- he said and I choked on the smoke.
-You see! I told you that it harms you! - he shouted and he took the cigarette from me, he threw it on the ground and stepped on it.
-Naruto!- we heard someone's voice. I looked at Naruto's house - A tall well build man, with long white hair stood in front of his house.
He was wearing long, dark coat, and boots and jeans with the same colour.- Good that you're here, because I have to go out.- said the man , while scratching his head,
-Could it be, a karaoke bar?- said Naruto with a mocking voice. The man just laughed.
-Whatever, just go- said Uzumaki. The man only waved to him with a smile on his face, and he vanished behind a corner.
-What's wrong with him? Isn't he too old for flirting with chicks in a pseudo-cowboy costume? - I laughed.
-You can read my mind. But Jiraya is like this.- smiled Naruto to himself.
-Jiraya?
-Yea. My godfather. Ey, no one is home now, wanna come over?

Me and Naruto, alone in his room...wow, so much could happen!
But...

-No, I will get going.- I said.
-Why? It's only 6 pm.
-Exactly, aren't 4 hours with me, enough for you?- I laughed and I started walking away.- It's getting dark, you could rape me.- I laughed.
-Don't be ridiculous! Sasuke, wait! - he laughed. I could feel him grabbing my arm, and turning me in his direction.
And suddenly something happened, something that I would never expect- when he turned me around, I leaned over a bit too much, and I ended up touching his lips with mine.

We both were in shock.
I looked at him with wide eyes.
He did too.

-I have to go.- I said and I almost ran, leaving him behind alone in front of his house, with a confused face.

***

I'm just an idiot. I ran off!
I could just laugh, and hide the embarrassment.
What I did, must had looked really fucking awesome...
It was so close, I could have kissed him! As a goodbye, accidentally and with a smile I could walk away. He would take it as a joke...
Oh God...I only touched his lips. I only touched them slightly!
But it was so sweet...sweet and innocent. He has such a delicate lips!

I began daydreaming, I was angry at myself for not staying there.
I entered the house. While opening the doors, I bumped into Itachi. 

-Why are you so horny?- He asked, while lifting his brow.
-M-m-m-m-m-me?- I stuttered - Why would y-you say that?
-You are all red, and your eyes look as if you took some drugs. I told you few times, that you shouldn't smoke that brand.- He said and he went to the kitchen.
Itachi knew that I'm smoking, but he never told my parents on me.

I stood on the hallway, without understanding exactly what's happening. I touched my cheeks - they were burning.
-But- but-but it's not what it looks like! - I shouted in his direction, while he poured some coffee in his cup, with a bored expression.
-Then what? - he asked calmly.
-I just ki-

EY! WAIT A MOMENT ! SASUKE, DON'T TELL HIM THAT!

-What did you do?- he asked, while looking at me.
-Eeeee...because I...ran! That's why I'm red.
-Then why are your eyes opened so wide? - he carried on, while sipping his coffee.
-Eyes...from...eee...smoking like you said. Plus the air in Tokyo overall irritates my eyes.- I said while I nervously giggled.
Itachi looked at me with an intelligent expression.

Quiet, Itachi is analysing.
I will hear his unique deduction.
Sasuke - It's a moment of truth.

Aha.- he said. I sighed with relief.
I sat by the table, opposite to him, while reaching with my two hands for a cup of coffee, like a five years old kid. Then Itachi took it from me.
I did a face of an annoyed child.
-You better make some tea, to calm yourself down. I never heard such a bullshit as this in my life - he hissed.

Oops..

Itachi, took his cup, and he left the kitchen.
I grimaced.  I put my face on a table.
Suddenly I felt vibrations - I looked on the side - Itachi left his phone on a table.
I looked at the display, to see who sent the message.

Honey ;*

New message

HONEY ?!

I threw myself on his phone. I almost had it in my hands, when suddenly Itachi entered the kitchen, and he swiftly took the phone from the table.

-1:0 for me.- he said while leaving the kitchen, and sticking out his tongue.

Itachi ran upstairs, and he locked the doors to his room right in front of my face.

I only heard quiet giggling behind the doors.

-I will get you! - I shouted.

-Yeaa...of course. Pigs will began to fly before you do.- he laughed.

-Then are you flying? - I said, while trying to make fun of him.

Suddenly Itachi's giggling stopped. I stood in front of the doors while expecting a reply.

Suddenly the doors opened, and Itachi looked at me with a serious face.

I was afraid.

He took two steps forward, and I took two steps backwards.

With one move he pinned me against the wall, and he looked me in the eyes.

He lifted his hand, as if he wanted to slap me. I became paralysed.

After a moment, I felt him flicking my nose. I opened my eyes.

Itachi stood with a grin on his face.

I got annoyed.

I wanted to pull his long hair, but he ran to his room again, and he closed the doors.

-2:0 for me! - he shouted.

Monkey...

***

I was in a bathroom and I was brushing my teeth.

It's time to sum up today's day...

Meeting with Naruto was...I wouldn't say scary.

It was sweet. Especially when Naruto was sticky from the giant lollipop, which we bought in Harajuku. And the moment when he got scared of the clown from McDonald. And when he was hugging a little kitten, which was walking around the station. As well as when he wanted to take picture with me- of course I didn't agree, because I look horrible on photographs, but then he did that sweet annoyed face.

And the moment when we stood in the middle of the field.- he looked beautiful with sunset behind him...

And the time, when I felt his lips...but

" It's only a heart defect..."

Those words echoed in my head.

Am I insane? I threw myself in front of the truck?! For someone like that?!

I know him for few days, I keep fighting with him, I wanted to save him, while risking my own life?!

After everything I even shouted at him...

I'm weird. I'm fucking weird.

So fucking in love...

I raised my head and I looked in a mirror.

Did I just think that I'm in love?

***

I woke at 6:10 am.

I got myself ready and I went downstairs, to drink some coffee.

I found Itachi in a living room - he fell asleep on a table, with glasses on his nose and loads of papers around him.

I remembered the situation from yesterday - teasing each other, and being childish.

I miss that.

Even if I'm 16 years old, I would want to take him in front of the house and throw mud at him, jump on the puddle, or cover him in leaves. Being silly with an older brother.

But I don't think that it's possible because...we are too old for that.

Our "relations" aren't looking well.

We used to know everything about each other, and now?

I don't remember when was the last time, when we sat down and had a long and honest conversation...about everything.

I entered the kitchen and I prepared two coffees. I put one on a table next to Itachi and I poked him. He opened his eyes.

-Wake up.- I said and Itachi yawned.

He looked funny, when he was so sleepy.

-Thanks...-he said and he took a sip of fresh coffee.

I smiled. Normal brotherly caring.

I entered the kitchen to finish off my coffee.

Today we will found out important information about the trip ,and I'm pretty happy about that.

***

We stood in front of the class, while waiting for the teacher. It was about 10 minutes after the bell...but it's physics after all- lesson with Kakashi. He's always late,and he always has some smart excuses ready like : he had to help an old cleaning lady, he couldn't flush the water in toilet. Yea sure, and in reality he was sitting with his legs on his desk while reading a book, and eating some chocolate bar.

But we still love him.

I like that he is this way - chilled, modern and young.

All the teachers in our school, are wearing clothes like for a funeral, and he lately came wearing light green tennis shoes, with 2 blue highlights on his hair.

I'm not surprised that girls are drooling over him.

But he is married for 5 years and he has a 7 years old daughter - Kumiko-chan.

And I wish them the best of the best.

-Sasuke!- I heard someone call me.

I haven't had a chance to turn around, or do anything, I felt a gentle kiss on my cheek.

My body became stiff.

Suddenly I sniffed a smell, that makes my brain and body crazy.

-N-Naruto? - I asked surprised.- W-what are you doing?

-I'm giving you a gratitude kiss.- he said with a smile, after he got away from my face.

-W-what for? - I asked.

I could feel my body temperature raising and I could feel getting red. My heart pounded like crazy.

- I forgot to thank you yesterday for the tea! I remembered when I got home yesterday, I didn't have any cash on my phone so I couldn't send you an SMS to say thank you. It didn't leave my mind, and then I saw you- he explained with his cute voice.

-A-ha.- I said with a high-pitched voice. Naruto only grinned.

-Guys, come inside the classroom. I'm sorry for being late - Said Kakashi when he was in front of the classroom.

I kept staring at Naruto.

-Eyyy, anorexic - enter the classroom.- Kiba pushed me.

-Don't call me that...- I mumbled.

***

-OK, so we are going on a trip on Monday.- said optimistically Kakashi, and everyone in the class shouted "Yayyy"- We are leaving at...5 am.- he said and excited voices turned into whining.- We should arrive there at 8 am, once we get there we will eat breakfast. Then you will get keys to your rooms and you can unpack.

-Are the rooms decided?- asked someone from the front row.

-Yes, there will be four rooms, for six people each. First room: Shikamaru, Naruto, Hikaru, Isamu, Sai and Hajime.- Kakashi has read the list, and he looked around the class to see if there will be any objections. When no one said anything he looked at his list again. Second room: Hinata, Ayano, Temari, Tayuya, Seki, Yoko.- He looked at the class again, he girls exchanged looks and they began to squeal, to show that they are satisfied. Kakashi smiled to himself- Third room: Kiba, Sasuke, Neji, Lee, Shino, Choji. We looked at each other. Kiba grinned at us. I liked that too.

Fourth room: Ino, Sakura, Sadako, Yaeko, Michi, Norie.

We looked at Ino who unluckily ended up with Sakra and the rest of the class Barbies, in one room.- she didn't look happy.

-OK, since there's no questions I will carry on. Plan looks like this: Monday- arrival and Thursday - return. 

On Monday we will tell you the plan of visiting, and we will give you a free day, since I don't think that you will be motivated to learn after 3-4 hours in a bus. I just hope that none of you will get lost.

On Tuesday we will wake at around 7-8 am, and we will be visiting mountains after breakfast.- he was reading from the paper.- Then you will listen to some...blah blah blah blah and test.- he said optimistically.

-What from?!- said Kiba, who after hearing the word "test" ,almost fell from his chair.

-Informations about the things you saw on a current day, I said that before. That trip isn't meant to be a relaxing day out, it has geographical-historical studying purpose, my dear ones.- he said and the class whined.

Wednesday will look the same- You will wake at 8 am and we are good to go - carried on sensei.- I think that we will be going to a national park, or something like that. Then of course test.

-Damn...it will be worse than a school! Test everyday! It's inhuman! - mumbled Kiba.

-That's why the trip is free - laughed Kakashi.

Thursday will be the same, but this time we will go to the lake. I hope that , there will be no victims.- joked Kakashi. We will return during evening. We will depart at about 7 pm that means we will be back here around 10-11 pm.

-Don't tell me that there will be school on Friday.- said Kiba.

-Yes! - Kakashi clapped his hands with a smile.

-But it will be hard to catch up on our studies. When I'm back I will be going to sleep straight away.- said Choji.

-That's why there's no lessons, there will be a bakery day.- smiled Kakashi.

-Bakery day?- I asked surprised.

-They organize that shit every year. First and second years bake cakes ,and they compete against each other for a trophy, "Best bakers of this school year".- explained to me Kiba, while waving his hand.

-What are third years doing on that day?

-Some are helping in some stands with cakes or something like that, and of course they are judging- explained bored Kiba.

-Have we got any volunteers?- asked Kakashi with positive attitude, and he took out his notebook.- Choji for sure I've been waiting one year for your cake with pudding.- Kakashi said in a dreamy way. With a smile he wrote down Choji's name down.

The boy just nodded.

-Sasuke? - asked Kakashi.

-What? Me?

-Can you cook?

-Yea, water in a kettle.- I said.

Prince Shikamaru burst out laughing.

-Write his name down, so that he can set school on fire, or drop us in rankings of the best schools- he laughed- That walking lack of talent can't do anything apart from showing off his lack of intelligence.

-But actually...he can't even do that.- he was making fun of me.

I want to punch him, but I will keep my dignity.

-Said a guy with a chain on his neck. Does your mummy feeds you steaks, and she let's you in a cage to play with other dogs? It would explain why you are so ugly.- I laughed. He didn't like what I just said.

-Boys, boys calm down.- Kakashi tried to calm us down.- Sakura do you know that you will be the host? - he carried on.

-Of course.- she said proudly and she moved her hair from shoulder.

-OK, that would be everything. At Monday at 4:45 am, everyone has to show up in front of the school, he concluded and he closed his notebook.

-Sasuke...-said Kiba

-Yea?

-Can you sleepover at my house on Sunday?

-Why?- I asked.

-Because someone has to wake me up...

***

3 lessons were over - physics, maths and Japanese. Now there's only English, PE and biology left.

Suddenly Sakura walked up to me.

-Sasukeeee - she moaned and she grabbed my arm- A sexy host should have a sexy helper. What would you say?- she asked, while getting closer to me.

-Get lo-

-Uchiha!- I heard Shikamaru's yell.

-What?- I asked. Sakura jumped away from me.

-Get away from MY chick! - he shouted, while waving his finger in front of my face.

-Tell that to your girlfriend.- I said and I calmly pointed at Sakura with my head. Shikamaru looked at her angrily.

-But Shika-chan, you got no time and I have to be with someone on the stage...-explained the girl, while sticking to him.

-What about Naruto?- he asked - I got some trust towards that orphan, because I know that you don't like him, and that he has no chance with a chick like you. While I can't be sure about him.- he said and he pointed at me.

I was in shock.

"What about Naruto? I got some trust towards that orphan, because I know that you don't like him."

I couldn't stand it.

I grabbed Shikamaru's shirt and I pulled him up.

Sakura screamed from fear.

-Did you hear youself?! How can you speak that way about your own friend?!

-Tee, why are you so confident, huh? Are you asking yourself to get hit? - he asked with his annoying smile.

-Sasuke! Put him down! - shouted Kiba, while running towards us.

-No! Not till he takes that back!

-What? - asked Sai, who ran to us with Temari.

-Naruto is not an orphan! He's your friend! I won't allow you to speak that way about him! - I shouted while still holding up Shikamaru.

Suddenly it became quiet around us.

I looked around the corridor.- few people stopped by to watch this scene, Kiba stood with his mouth opened while looking at me then at Shikamaru, Sakura stood next to us with a worried expression, Naruto stood by the wall, while Neji and Hina-

NARUTO IS STANDING BY THE WALL?!

I looked at him with terrified eyes.

He also looked at me but with questioning expression.

I put Shikamaru back on the ground.

Without saying anything I grabbed my bag, and embarrassed by this situation. I lowered my head and I ran upstairs without saying anything.

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Life is painful - Chapter 19

***

We walked in the direction of a huge mall centre.
The girls walked in front of us, while we walked right behind them.

Today we didn't wear school uniforms.
Thanks to that we could see an individual style, that each of them has:

Ino is sort of like a little, sweet fashionista. Every thing that she wore, I've seen on billboards before or on a shop window display.
Sai and Shino they look like a models - tight shirts, dark and round glasses, jeans and they had white coats over their shoulders. Every girl has looked at them.
Hinata she's very feminine and stylish - a skirt with high waist plus an elegant white top.
Kiba like I've said before - his style resembles hip hop one: wide trousers and long top.
Temari total punk
Tayuya same as Temari, but in a more "seductive" version.
Neji...How to say that...his style was the most shocking. I won't drag it - Neji is a total hyppie. colourful and loose top, trousers in flowers, rainbow sneakers, and two thin headbands on his head.
Choji his clothes are normal, but thanks to his long hair he is outstanding.

I'm the only one "plain" looking...

Soon we reached our destination...

***

After like 4 hours of walking around shops, tired but satisfied we sat in a cafe.

This day can count as successful.
And very funny too.

It was close, Neji almost convinced me to dye my hair blonde.
Oh God, luckily Kiba was near by and he got that idea out of my head...

-Well...what do you plan for the future? Who do you want to be after high-school and so on?- asked Ino
I only stirred my straw in my vanilla shake as a response.
-Tell me...Sasuke.- she pointed at me.
I felt as if I've been called up front, in front of the classroom - without knowing how to answer.
-I don't know...
-No? she asked surprised.- Then what will you do?
-I don't know, stop tiring me.- I said resigned and I sat comfortably

Since childhood I was saying that I will become a jockey.
But since Itachi found himself an activity named "Kill Sasuke" I stopped horse riding and my dreams popped like a bubble.
I don't know any more what to do with myself.

-Sasuke is right, let's leave him alone. But if you have any problem then talk to us - we will help.- said Cho with a smile.
-Thanks, but I just simply don't know what to do.- I replied to him, while biting my lip.
-Then maybe...do you like doing anything specific? I don't know...do you play on something?
-Apart from playing on nerves, nah nothing.- I said.
-Heh...then maybe...o! What subjects are you best at?
-Humanistic.- I said while playing with Shino's key fob.
After a moment of silence Tayuya and Kiba shouted at the same time:
-A lawyer!
-Me? A lawyer?- I looked them as if ,it was the most stupid thing that one could say.
-Yea. It gives good cash.- said Tayuya
-And you are so serious, you're suited to be a lawyer- added Kiba
-Thanks.- I said clearly not pleased with what I just heard.
-Don't feel offended...but they are right. You suit to be someone with "higher position"- said Neji
-Look who says that- I mumbled while taking a sip of coffee.
Neji smiled to himself.
-Ah yeah, Neji- what about you?- asked Hinata - I know that your father wants you to be like him, but what do you want to do?
-Something that is far off ,from what my father planned for me...- he said with a sad tone.
-Erotic dancing?- I asked with a smile. and he hit me in my head as a response.
-No, idiot.
-Then what?- I asked while massaging the place that he had just hit.
-H....ha...-he was mumbling, and he lowered his head.
-What? Because I couldn't hear you.- I said and I leaned over to him.
-Hai...dr..
-What?- I got even closer to him.
-Hairdresser!- he shouted and I jumped back, while covering my ear.
-Hairdresser?- asked Kiba with disbelief.
-Are you kidding?- asked Temari.
-No- he replied.
-Then you have a problem.- I said.
-I know...-he said with a depressed face.
-Stand up against your father.- I suggested while drinking coffee.
-Do you think it's so easy?- asked Neji.
-Of course. You saw yourself yesterday ,how a master does it.-he pointed at himself proudly.
-But it wasn't your own father. Did you even see his reaction, when he saw me with those clothes on..
-Mine or not mine- same person. Ah yes Neji, Neji...have you got any problems because of me?
-Surprisingly no. He avoided me for the rest of the day without saying anything.
-That's good then...-I said with a relief while sipping vanilla shake this time.


I was about to answer Temari's question when she asked "How would I look with ginger hair?" but I saw Itachi in front of the cafe doors.

I was shocked.
My body became stiff, and I looked at him with eyes full of fear.
I was scared that he came for...you know what.
The worst scenarios were passing through my mind, starting from killing me and ending on setting the cafe on fire.

He began looking around and our eyes met.
I sat nervously while playing with my fingers.
Soon I will begin to panic...

Itachi smiled at me and he began to wave in my direction.
I didn't move.
I noticed someone behind him...a very familiar gi-

Wait a moment!
It's that a guy, who gave me the directions!

He looked at me and he also began to wave.
-Hello Sasuke!- the blonde guy called me.

How does he know my name?


Itachi after seeing the boy's behaviour smiled.


Wait..."smiled"?

The blonde guy came up to our table and he greeted Temari and Neji.

I didn't know what's going on.
I had no control whatsoever over this situation.

I saw Itachi coming up to us as well.
I opened my lips, I wanted to scream, but I didn't do it.
I was nervously looking around, to see which route I could take to escape.

-Hey Sasuke.- said Itachi, when he ended up next to me.
I became paralysed and I looked at the wall in front of me.
-H-hey...-I replied
He was smiling kindly to the rest of the group.
Ino was staring at him, the same as the rest of the girls.

Now, I don't know what's going on at all...

-He-hello! I'm Ino!- she shouted, while standing up and passing him her hand.
He grabbed her hand and kissed it.

One out of 9374843848478438343...9 things that are pissing me off...
A fucking gentleman...

Ino was so excited that she almost "passed out". Itachi greeted with everyone, by introducing himself.

I was interested in the fact that Kiba didn't shake hands with him, and he was looking at him suspiciously.

Itachi was ignoring that fact, he stood while smiling next to the blonde guy.
I was still looking with absent eyes, while wondering "what to do?".


-Ah by the way! - said the blonde guy - I haven't introduced myself to you, Sasuke.- he sat in front of me - Deidera, nice to meet you.- he said with a smile.
-Nice to meet you too.- I said with nervous tone and I shook his hand.
-How do you know each other?- Temari asked Deidera, while pointing at Itachi.
-Thanks to acquaintances. Itachi moved here with his parents. He wanted to go to an ar-
-You know what?- interrupted him Itachi, while putting a hand on his shoulder.- Let's go now,because Nobu is waiting for us. See you later, brother.- he said while pulling Deidera towards the exit.

I was paralysed.

 He didn't do anything to me?

-Who was that, who was that?- stood up Ino- Oh God, soooooo handsome!
-He was hot.- Hinata became red.
-Ahh so dreamy.- said Tayuya with a smile.
-So, who was that?- asked Ino impatiently.
-My brother...
-Really? Kyaaa!- Ino started to jump around.
-Don't get so excited, he's too old for you.- mumbled Kiba.
-Yeaaaa? - she said - It's interesting b-
-Ey change the subject.-I interrupted them.
Girls looked at me confused.
Kiba turned his head towards the window and he took a sip of coffee.
-But Sasuke we only- - Ino started speaking.
-DON'T TALK ABOUT MY BROTHER IN FRONT OF ME.-I said annoyed.
Ino looked at me surprised, but after a moment she sat back on her place.

-So...- said Neji nervously...since we drank some coffee and we are..in...heh..."good" mood, then maybe we should go to a cosmetic store?- he suggested, seems he did that so girls would forget about what just happened.

-Yes!- all the girls stood up excited by that proposition.
Only Hinata looked at me worried, what I tried to ignore...
-OK, then let's go.- said Kiba, while picking up his coat with not too pleased expression.

***

 After two more hours in cosmetic stores, in quite "heavy atmosphere" we took train to get back home.
Everyone was busy getting involved in conversation that Neji has started.

I was grateful to him for that - I knew that he does it for me, because every now and then he looked at me with a smile.
While I only said few words from time to time ,pretending that I'm taking part in their conversation.
Kiba was silent for the entire way.
Choji and Shino couldn't help but notice that - they were surprised that he wasn't using this time to spend it with Ino.
I was pretending that nothing is happening ,and I was avoiding eye contact.

***

-Then what? See you on Monday!- shouted Neji while waving at us.
We said goodbye and everyone went in their direction- Neji, Tayuya and Temari went left, Sai and Choji straight, me, Kiba, Shino and Ino right.

-It was so fuuuun. I can't believe that I managed to get those boots from the latest collection- said Ino cheerfully.
-Why wouldn't you be able to get them? - asked Shino - Collection was released yesterday morning.
-Oi , Shino, Shino - such stuff get sold  very quickly - the girl said while hugging her bag with boots inside them.
I only smiled.

We stood in front of Ino's house.
-Well then, see you.- the girl said with a smile.
She kissed me and Shino on a cheek.
She walked up to Kiba and she grabbed his face with her hands.
-Are you OK?- she asked while looking at him.
-Yes everything is fine.- he said while smiling gently.
The girl moved her thumb on his cheek, she stood on her toes and she kissed his forehead.
Kiba slightly blushed and smiled, he stood back and he watched the girl enter the house.
-Nice view.- said Shino when we walked away from her home.
-Yeaaa...- I said with a smile on my face.

Shino is right - Kiba and Ino would be a great couple.
But Kiba is a sissy ,and he won't ask her out for a date.

I don't know why but I feel like helping them get together...

-Well, I have to say goodbye and immediately run to my house.- said Shino while looking at his watch - And remember - Ayamate aratamaru - ni habakaru nakare. (Never hesitate to admit to a mistake and apologize)
I looked at Kiba, and he looked at me.
-He's right...-I'm sorry for behaving like this today...-he said.
-That's fine, but why did you behave like this?- I asked when we headed home.
-I don't know how to tell you that...I just had a feeling that your wound is related to your brother- He said and I was totally shocked.

I stopped walking, and he looked at me with a questioning face.
How...how did he reach that conclusion...? How is that possible? For 8 years no one even have thought of it...and he only looked at Itachi and...he knew?

-Sasuke what's wrong?

I don't know how to react...I have to...no.
I can't tell him.
But if he ever finds out the truth? The fact that I lied would come out.
But how...we know each other for such short period of time, and he noticed...instantly? He just knew it? After hiding the truth for so many years...
But what happened that he thought of that? Were my feelings that obvious, after I saw Itachi in a cafe? Was my fear that obvious? 
Itachi will kill me...

-Sasuke, what's going on?

I felt tears in my eyes.
I feel so helpless, like never before in my life.
I stood in front of Kiba, and I felt as if ,I was awaiting for my death sentence.

-Kiba, I.- I began with a trembling voice, I stood in the middle of pavement while clenching my fists, when he suddenly interrupted me.
-I know, sorry, stupid thought. Let's pretend that I never said that, ok?- he said while forcing a smile.
-OK.- I replied.


I felt relieved.
I still have to be more careful from now on.
Kiba - you have no idea that you are an idiot and a genius at the same time.

-What's up with you? - he laughed when my tear dropped.
I wiped it with my sleeve.
-Nothing, nothing, I have to get used to this windy weather. It irritates my eyes.- I laughed.
Kiba patted my back.

We carried on walking.

***

When I came back home parents sat in a kitchen, Itachi still wasn't home.
Mom kept throwing questions at me about how I feel, if I'm ok. how's the wound and so on.
Dad only said a short "Hi"

At least he said something...

I went upstairs.
I saw that the doors in Itachi's room were slightly opened.
I couldn't resist the temptation to go inside and check that paper.
My curiosity was taking over.

I went inside of his room ,and I began to look blindly through his stuff on the desk.
Then I checked the cabinet.
In the end I checked under the bed, there was cardboard under it.
I took it out and I peaked inside - loads of papers.
I was looking at every paper one after one, till I found the creased up paper.

"Unfortunately we would like you to inform you ,that..."

Yes, that's the one!

I looked around to make sure that no one is watching me, I began to read.

"Unfortunately we would like to inform you, that we have rejected your application for Art University-"

...Art?

I stopped reading.

I put the paper back where it was, I put everything back on it's place ,and I left his room.  

Art...

***

I couldn't sleep at night.

Why Itachi sent an application to an Art University?

That guy has no talent whatsoever in drawing, not to mention that he was never interested in it before.

And how come Kiba...discovered THAT?

I woke at about 10 am.
It's Sunday after all.
I went downstairs in underwear and my new anti slippery socks - gift from mom...

I went inside the kitchen. I took out a bowl and I have poured in some colourful cereals.
I added milk and I lay on a sofa in a living room. I turned on a TV.
I was about to take the first spoon of cereals, when I remembered that I haven't replied to Naruto's SMS yesterday.
Should I...reply or not?
Should I show up myself, in this condition?- I thought and I touched my bandaged eyebrow.
I put the bowl away on a table, and I leaned my elbow on it.
Some stupid show was running on TV.

Should I reply or not...

I know! If I will switch  a channel now ,and If it will end up on a music programme then - I will reply.
If not- then I won't.

I reached out for remote control and I pressed number 9.
...music programme..

I know! I will move on two channels backwards - if there will be a music programme - I will reply.
If not - I wont.

I pressed number 7
...music programme..

I know! I will press...57- If there will be a music programme - I will reply
If not - I won't
I pressed 57...
...music programme...?

I will press..98!
If there will be a music programme - I will reply.
If not - I won't.

I pressed 98.

...music programme.

Eeee...
....666!
There won't be anything to do with music for sure!

I pressed 666
....programme with Arabic music.


Even TV is against me.

Resigned I reached for my phone.

Is the meeting still valid? - I asked

Of course :D. I was scared that you won't reply :(

When and where?

Maybe at 2 pm? I will come to pick you up and we will go somewhere :D

Ok.

;*

Somewhere...
I stretched my body on a carpet by the sofa. I looked at my phone's display and I smiled to myself.

***

It was almost 2 pm, and I was running around the house in 2 different socks, while looking for a hoodie which turned out to be in a laundry.
Additionally battery in my phone died, and I couldn't inform Naruto, to come a little later.

That's what happens when you fall asleep on a carpet by the sofa, on channel 666...
"Bollywood" movies make me sleepy...


After few minutes I somehow managed to get ready on time. I heard the knocking.
I opened the doors.
Naruto stood on the other side.
He wore a blue hoodie with long sleeves with some overprint, blue sneakers and dark jeans. He had an orange bag over his shoulder. He had a messy hairstyle.

He looked...great.

-Like always colourful- I said, Naruto slightly blushed.
-Thanks...shall we go then?- he suggested optimistically, without saying a word I took my bag and I locked the doors behind me.

***

Today's weather, wasn't too great - Dark clouds and there was about 10 degrees outside.

If not for Sakura trees, it wouldn't feel like a spring.

But this day has been brightened by the sun, who proudly walked by my side, while keep talking about something.
I was surprised, that Naruto was able to talk so much. My jaw would hurt me...
It was nice that he wasn't talking about one subject all time time, while boring everyone around him,, instead he moved any possible subject that came to his mind - and on every subject he has his own interesting opinion.

His laugh is so sweet!
I love looking at him, when he laughs. His eyes are sparkling every time.

I loved Naruto's voice - it was so...so...unique. A bit childish, but at the same time it was so darn sexy.
Jeez I would give a lot, just to hear him moan.

I like his style too.
What was weird. Since "colourful" people used to annoy me, as for him I could eat him up, because he's so sweet. And his behaviour...he is jumping around me like a ping pong ball, he's not tired at all.-Like a squirrel on drugs.

Naruto is like a typical teenager from Harajuku - colourful, crazy with friendly attitude towards everything. He only thinks of fun.

Usually I'm against such things, because a guy his age should behave seriously and think about the future, but when it comes to Naruto, I don't ever want him to stop being childish and cheerful.

--Emmm...Sasuke..I know that you want to talk about this, but-
-I won't talk about Sakura,- I said before he could finish
-But Sas-
-NO. -Naruto stopped walking, while I didn't pay attention to his reaction.
Suddenly I heard him run.
Then I felt how he grabs my arm and turns me around. We were facing each other.
-How can you leave it like that!- he shouted - You know, that it's important to me!
-But it doesn't involve me. I don't love her and I won't, just because "You want that".
-But that's not what I want! Just treat her differently.
-No!- I opposed like a little child.
-Why not?!
-I hate her, do you understand?! I feel like puking every time I see , what she does to other people! I'm sick when I see, how you care about her! - I shouted and I pushed his hand off my arm.
I walked forward but Naruto caught up to me, and he block my way again.
-Why are you like this..?- he asked in calmer tone.
-Like this? You don't like the fact that, I'm not cheerful non stop?!- I yelled.

I was pissed off by this situation.

-No! I don't like the fact, that you don't pay attention to how other people feel!
-I don't? - I laughed - Do you? Did you ever think at least once, about how the fuck do I feel in this situation?! You're trying to tell me what to do. I got a brain, not a hard disk! You can't change my mind, just by telling me to! - I shouted,
Naruto looked at me and he nodded.
He walked towards the zebra crossing.

I stood in the middle of the pavement, while breathing heavily from anger.
I wanted to hit him, but on the other side I wanted to jump in his arms and cry.
Why is it this way?!

Suddenly I heard a beep.
Without knowing what's going on, I looked at the truck which was going straight towards Uzumaki.

-Naruto! - I yelled.

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